nothing much to say cept classes are fun...the japanese language class was WAY too easy though. we learned how to say we like stuff...friggin I learned the first time I watched Marmalade Boy (Yuuuuuuu! Suki! YUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!).

my graphic art teacher's giving me a seperate assignment though...cause he saw what I could do with photoshop already and thought the first project wouldn't be a challenge for me. So I'm gonna do a flash project! wee! I actually get to learn flash. I have a few ideas....I get to finally incorporate all those song lyrics I wrote for something...maybe the quote I found from "Desert Dolphin" that I really clicked with. ^_^ tanoshiii!!

BTW, a new layout IS on the way as soon as either (1) I get the cable modem set up. or (2) I figure out how to access an FTP server on the campus computers. I also have been playing around and making 2 new wallpapers. Both Malice Mizer. I really like one of them though I relied too heavily on brushes so the second one I went brush free...it's not as good but it's still decent. oh well. ^_^
Thursday, August 29, 2002 @ 05:13 p.m.

woo. still no net. figures.

Oh well. classes are good. They're going to be alot of work though, but that's a good thing cause I need something to keep me from falling idle...one of my familiar ruts is apathy >_< ...

I've met a few people...one guy who loves hot topic, a girl who loves five iron frenzy, another girl that loves anime. ^_^ I'm meeting people! I'm actually not being little anti-social psycho and I'm meeting and being a normal human being. ^____^

I've been getting lots of compliments on my hair...the dye faded slightly so now it looks green from far away but you get up close and it looks blue...a few said it was "really different" and in the good way...though I suppose I'd feel complimented if it was in the bad way too. *grin* I love getting a rise of people. It's amusing.

Yup...I'm turning in my application for the dorm cafe today. hopefully I'll get a job there. money can be a good thing >_<....
Thursday, August 29, 2002 @ 11:17 a.m.

Woo. another day on the campus computers.

So far the quest to set up the utilities is having a few interesting jumps. The electricity line is so busy that we can't call in, the phone line is similar, the gas we managed to set up but it won't be hooked in till Sept 13th because everyone and their dog is setting up. Well at least the gas is being a problem now instead of in the middle of winter...I just get to take my showers over at brian's place or something till then. (>_o not like that you hentai!)

But another day of getting settled in has been accomplished. I even dreamed last night. (It was really weird...I was at a club but the only people there were soccer moms and their young children and old men...and then some of the old men hit on me @_@ ug it was really gross. But I talked to the bar tenders and a few of them were ok...but one made me a drink they put Cookies and Cream Icecream in...Usually drink stuff like lime etc etc then blended in some Cookies and Cream...They told me it was an aquired taste. >_>;; Anyways. back to ranting) So I'm adjusting and that's a good thing...Playstation is a beautiful thing.

So far we have another ellusive fourth roommate. She still hasn't shown up. Supposedly her name is Gina, and that's all we know. Classes are starting tomorrow! Mou @_@;;

Did somemore cleaning. Blah blah. Waiting for classes to start blah blah. Going to try and get a job today blah blah. Blah.
Monday, August 26, 2002 @ 02:27 p.m.

woo. I'm up at school again. I don't have the internet set up yet so this rant is via the campus computers. I have to call the electric company, the gas company, the phone company, and the cable company to finally set everything up that I need to.

The apartment feels something like a second home as much as I never wanted it to be last year. Last year was baaad. very bad. But I'm going to make this year different >_< I swear it!

It's fun having Tomo-chan up with me. Didn't go through my typical "oh god. I'm alone again @__@" ^_^ That's a good thing a very very good thing. Played a little playstation, did some housework, started perfecting onigiri making skilz, settling in stuff. It was nice and not so...abandoning as last time. ^_^ I feel decent, and that's a good thing.

Tomo already completely covered her wall in posters already...@_@ wow. I just put up a stragetically placed picture or two...makes me want a big poster of MM in the Shiroi style or maybe one of adorable Ryutaro. *_*

Um....don't really have much else to talk about. Maybe some shout outs cause I don't have the internet hense no AIM to talk to peps:

Nigaki-*wavies* hope everything's going ok at home...and I started printing out lots of pretty Malice pictures to hang on the walls. *___* @ Khala. Good luck with organizing anime night >_< I really hope it all works out
Dee-I hope everything's going well settling in for you. You're a cool person and don't forget it!
Sarah-Hope you're settling in well and Fluffy made the trip ok. And no I don't have your legolas wallpaper done yet but tomo has a bunch of legolas pictures so I might be able to get it done.
Mom-I love you and the rest of the family, but I know you're the only one who really checks this. *wavies* life is good and I brush my teeth and eat more than microwave popcorn
Anyone else-*wavies* my brain hasn't exploded yet. life is good. hope yours is too.
Sunday, August 25, 2002 @ 04:27 p.m.

today's my last day at home...but I have a feeling things are going to be alot different than last year. So I'm not too incredably sad. ^_^ And if things aren't different I'm going to make them different! yooosh! *grins*

I'm still sad about leaving my family and most of my friends. And my pets. I can talk to my family on the phone and such but it's hard to pet your dog from far away ^ ^;;

But I'm determined to make this year different than the last. I'm going to work, I'm going to make friends, I'm going to learn things other than bitterness and anger, I'm going to have fun. I'm not going to sit on my butt and stew in my loneliness like last year. I am determined ^_^

I'm rather sad anime night's gonna die because of lack of host...well anna started an anime club at school, but I heard all they play is slayers and another round of mahotsukitai. Kinda sad seeing one of the things I helped create die...maybe it'll get some resetation during the summer or winter break or whatever....

Oh and two new CD's from various sources....I got the "For You" Hikki single. *cackles* now I can sing karaoke! Fear me! Myhahaha!....*coughs* anyways. Nigaki gave me a burn of Malice Mizer's "Bara no Seidou" along with a copy of the "Gardenia" single....Oh...my....god.....I LOVE IT! The Thunder storm raging around didn't help either *__* All the dramatics, and all the emotion! *squeals and starts prepping voice to sing opera along with Khala*

Well that's it for my ranting. I'm gonna go do laundry and pack some....I don't really have much to pack ^ ^;;
Friday, August 23, 2002 @ 11:27 a.m.

Ninmu Kanryo. One of my goals in life has now been completed. I have completely blue hair. *squeals* ^_^ I finally have it. It was fun, but long and rather expensive compared to most experience. around $40 total for all the bleach (2 kits) and hair dye (2 bottles). There were points where I was cursing my thick dark hair for being so damn thick and dark...well anyways. I promised before and after pictures so here we go

Wednesday, August 21, 2002 @ 10:06 p.m.

ok. here's my full entry.

Tomo and I went BACK to Ikea to buy lightbulbs for her lamp, and I bought a few new things like placemats and a lamp for the living room and such....I got another plant *sweatdrop* I think I'm obseesed with taking care of things...oh well. This is an asparagus fern named Kishu...I think I'm going to keep him in the back of the living room away from the sun and then take him in the shower with me when I need to bathe cause all the yummy humidity'll help him grow ^_^

I'm going to be babysitting Chelsea again...the spoiled princess. Has every material thing she'd ever want...but serverly lacks in love. I really hope she'll learn those lessons later on in life...

I'm going to be trying to make an appointment to bleach all my hair for the hair place tomo recomends but if I can't make one I'm just gonna go to Cheapo-cuts and hope they don't make my hair fall out. *shrugs* I love my long hair but if I get a farfie cut I don't really care either...

Umm....*ponders* I don't really know what else to broadcast to the rest of the world that actually reads my drivvle.
Tuesday, August 20, 2002 @ 11:28 a.m.

today was my last day of work! guess what thaaaaat means! *grins* Blue hair! oh yes! I'm excited.

I'd write more, but I feel drained, moody, and overall the usual chocolate season symptoms...I'll say more tomorrow

Well I will say that I'm glad that things are working out for my friends again. ok. off to bed and sleeping in and all that good I-don't-have-to-get-up-for-work-tomorrow stuff. good night.
Tuesday, August 20, 2002 @ 12:13 a.m.

wee! ikea fun for today! ^_^ tomo and I went out and bought stuff for the apartment even though alot of stuff is already taken care of. Got some cork boards and a strainer and stuff like that. Nothing really big, though I did splurge on some cacti. 3 to be exact. Their names are Gallie, Nataku, and Crawford. they're so adorable. Gallie's short for Galahad from Monty Python, but more just Gallie as well. Nataku is the prince from Saiyuki, as well as Wufei's gundam's petname. Crawford's such a prickly ass so it suited a cactus. XD

Only a few more days of work left and then I'm getting my whole head dyed blue. ^_^ I think I'll get some pictures taken for comparison. The full head of blue curly is giving me interesting ideas for cosplaying....Tot among other things. *grins* psycho umbrella girl!
Thursday, August 15, 2002 @ 10:40 p.m.

I did dishes instead of sandwich line...*shrugs* as long as it wasn't dining room.

I don't really have to say much outside of personal material. um...*twiddles thumbs* I'm going to be going back to school in a week and a half. *shrugs* my life really is boring at sometimes. I'm starting to wonder about that Death card if it wasn't just a fluke. *shrugs* I can't really tell my own future anyways. I'm such a weirdo like that...actually I'm weirdo anyways *grins*
Tuesday, August 13, 2002 @ 06:22 p.m.

I went home from work early yesterday...my stomach's been doing mild flips for that past couple days...lots of unusual digestive and exratory system problems....mostly mild though so no real problem. I think I just ate some bad blue berries....

I wrote another song. ^_^ and I've started writing a tune too! Unfortunetly on a 10 year old keyboard without a E or B-flat tone. I guess I have to use the piano after all....I don't like playing in front of others >_< *embarassed embarassed*

Oh ya. and I'm working on a new layout. It's Plastic Tree's Ryutaro. *grin* he's soooo cool! *squeals like a rabid fangirl* I lost the work I was doing on it though >_< But oh well ^_^

I hope nothing happens at work today >_>;; I'm actually not doing dining room for once. ^___^ I'm doing sandwich line, most probably soups. I like soups ^_^ *genki genki*
Tuesday, August 13, 2002 @ 09:41 a.m.

day off day off ^_^ good fun.

I went shopping with Tomo and Naoko yesterday, it was fun. *is sounding so shallow at the moment* I bought lots of Nori, and some seesame oil, and lots of Apple Soda. ^_^

But I also got a purchase over the net. If ya'll didn't know I absolutely adore the song "For You" by Utada Hikaru. I don't know why. But no matter the mood, if it comes on my CD player I turn it up and belt. The lyrics aren't too bad either. But anyways. I want to get the karaoke version of the song and unfortunetly it's really really really rare >_< dern it! But I love the song so much that I might as well get the single ^_^. Thanks to Nigaki's help I found a site that not only had it, but had it for a decent price....my only problem. 1-2 weeks shipping....I might be back at school by the time I get it @___@!!

Oh and philisophical rant. >_< Sometimes I wish I could twist fate and help others. Some people are just in situations not condusive to growth or even life and I wish I could change that...but then I suppose it'd be like chickens. When a chicken hatches it has to peck it's own way out, if someone helps take it's own shell off, it dies because it couldn't develop it's own neck muscles. Even if it can't peck it's way out by itself, I shouldn't try to take off it's shell...the chick suffers either way. I hate those twist of fate. And I hate omlettes too. and those rose buds that are cut so the others grow better. I hate fate sometimes.
Sunday, August 11, 2002 @ 10:48 a.m.

pardon the language, but I had the day from hell at work and I'm going to rant my brains out because I'm....well lets just say Black Haru is rather familiar.

I was the only one in dining room today again. And today I sifted through garbage. A woman left her keys on a tray and was thrown in the garbage. Guess who got to sift through the nasty mess to find it...and it wasn't even in there. They were returned to one of the managers. I wasn't happy. The woman didn't even give me a tip.

But I returned to the dinning room which was now in complete ruins, and customers are complaining about their tables being messy, and the contiments are running low, the coffee had expired, the floor was a mess, the windows were covered in finger prints, the trash cans were filled to the max, and the bus stations were a mess all because people couldn't read labels like "Trays" and "Dishes, Silverware, and Mugs"...'hmm, let's see how we can screw the dining room person by leaving out trash and dishes on the tray stack...and how about we put our trays in the dish container. I'm sure she'd be so amused....' or perhaps 'der...."trays" I guess the dishes go there' or even better 'I'm too lazy to tilt everything 45 degrees so I'm going to leave in on top of everything so other people have to stack it on top of mine.'

Everything was a mess. Aka I failed. My perfectionism backfired and I felt angry and upset because I failed at my job. Mostly because of other's stupidity, but I can't help but feel like I failed to do my job, no matter how hard I worked. damn it. I hate feeling like a failure. I hate people. They're fucking idiots. I need to slap a few.
Friday, August 9, 2002 @ 04:17 p.m.

well, I've been working alot. they decided to give me another hour, and now they're sticking me as the only one in dinning room during lunch rush...not like I haven't done that before at my original store. I friggin did it ever day there. and then I wonder why I start fantasizing about stabbing things....but anyways. they're giving me alot of hours which is cool monetary-wise, but bad cause it's tiring, but good because I'm feel all powerful and stuff, but bad cause it gives me way too much time to think. If there's anything that's disastorous for me, it's thinking.

If ya'll didn't know it already, I'm deep. To the point of extreme. I think about everything, characters from series, the patterns of society, the way water forms on a dirty table vs a clean table, my future, others future, the nature of different types of people, why I need to smile, what's going to happen within the next 5 minutes, the nature of hatred, my fears, the best way to make coffee in the shortest amount of time with the highest quality of work, my friends, characters from a series...It all makes me into a very spacey person. But it also makes it increadably disastorous if I think too much. I lose track of the here and now. I also forget that there are others that don't....er...think as much.

But a few factors in my life have been worrying me...and I'm currently thinking about them...too much. My little mind is going to explode if I don't stop my angsting sometime soon. Damn I think I need a fanfic >_< Sweet fanfic! Take me away!

Oh ya. I took a stab at writing a song. I still need to come up with a tune, but that'll come eventually I suppose. ^_^ I'll work on it if I can.

ok, here's some mind slush from yours truely. Mostly in responce to Nigaki's ranting about JRock creation.

A while back Nigaki pointed out to me that I could be a great musician. Passionate, determined, creative, not to mention I have a killer sense of remembering ANYTHING audio. Everything from voice actors, to lyrics, to what kind of dish was just dropped on the floor. But I never really submerged into any one instrument, never really submerged myself into anything musical, and I think it's because I never really clicked with anything...anything but singing.

I know I don't have the most beautiful voice in the world, but I put all my feelings into things when I sing. Even if the song is sad, I'll sing it brightly if that's my mood. If the song sings about bright love and I'm feeling like the weight of the world is on my shoulders, I'll belt it out with all my negative emotion. I think that's why I love japanese music so much. Because I can't translate the lyrics immediately, I can put whatever meaning I want behind it. It's my way of releasing my emotions better than my visual art ever did. And I never even knew I did it for the longest time. I just knew I sang alot in the car.

But the more I've been thinking about it the more I know I'd never be cut out for the visual arts world. If I had the choice to be blind, deaf, or mute, I'd choose blind in a second. I don't think a visual artist is suppose to loose that sort of passion about their environment...

As for dreams...I don't think being a singer was ever one...but I always just wanted to be able to say something, and people would listen. I think that's all I really wanted out of life. When I say something, people listen. Maybe I singer wouldn't be such a terrible dream after all.

^_^ I should plan on forming a band perhaps. But who would take me in >_< damn it! I don't even know any bands up at school! grrr. *stabs a pillow*
Monday, August 5, 2002 @ 04:18 p.m.

wow...I've needed a day off...I just woke up *points to clock 12:00* Thank god I didn't go to church this morning (haha! it's pun! you're supposed to laugh now) my parent let me cause I go to south side church now. *shrugs* normal church hold very very little interest for me right now. All the pomp and circumstance...for what? glorifying God? whatever.

But anyways. Work's been amusing. Cannan and I have been mock threatening each other for a while. It's fun. "Erin, don't make me stab you." "wee! blood!" ^_^ I need something to keep me entertained....oh and the sandwich-line guys have started to specifically using lounge singer accents to call out the order numbers. Good fun. ^_^

Though I thought it was very sad. I wasn't surprized but none the less, very sad. One of the newbies at dinning room worked with me one day. I didn't really like her much from the start, but at least she tried and I'd commend her for that. But I found out she's never read/seen/even-rented Macbeth. I'm like "it's classic literature! Shakesphere even! One of the building blocks of our culture!" "I'm not into that sort of thing" 'Thing' of course relating to anything not related to pop culture cause that would be dorky. sorry. I could just see in her eyes that I was one of those geeks that popular people shouldn't talk to. Not a person. *sigh* Those people make me sad. They're so pathetic and they don't even know it. mou...at least my little sister aka The teenie bopper Ayame, has some culture and sees beyond my arm warmers.

Buuuuut I found out something at work which made me gleeful and genki the rest of the day. MT2 plays J-Rock!!! ^_^ ^_^ ^_^ They have a show on there that plays asian music, most of it's J-Rock. But then I think about it...why Should I be surprized that MT2 plays the overtly different musical genre. Cannan said "ya...some of the stuff is a little wild." Muraki makes trouble in Meifu. Muraki makes trouble in Meifu.

*yawns* but time to get off and get ready to leave. Tomo's buying a rice cooker for the apartment and I'm helping pick it out =D weeeee!
Sunday, August 4, 2002 @ 12:26 p.m.

^_^ Quizzes, cause I want to.

What's Your Inner Demon?
You hate people. You think they should all die. You're right.
this quiz was made by Melissa

I am a subtle taste, like Pine. I am a quiet, fresh taste, almost more of a scent than a flavour. You will be aware of me, but not quite remember me without being reminded. Not that I'm boring; on the contrary, I'm just a little outside the ordinary. What Flavour Are You?

I took this a while back and got the tomato. Second place this time. ^ ^

Nuts-O Angel
You probably break down into nervous fits of insane laughter a lot. It's also a pretty good possibility that you're pretty strong in your emotions for a sibling...be they good emotions or bad. You are also one of the few types of villans that would just assume crush higher beings than people.
Find out what anime villan you are.

And I stole this from Dee. *points to links*

1. [Spell your name backwards]: nire
2. [Where do you live?]: my parents house during the summer. apartment during school
3. [Describe yourself in 4 words]: comtemplative, evasive, giving, passionate
4. [Who is your worst enemy?]: *coughs* no comment
5. [If you could have any animal, what would it be?]: I always wanted a pet Skunk. Perhaps a Raven. But I'll go for the ordinary puppy ^_^
6. [What is the latest you've ever stayed up]: perhaps 3 days...usually when I've had too much sun. But other than that a full day. I like my sleep ^_^
7. [Ever been to Belgium?]: No
8. [What's your favorite coin?]: hm...dunno o_o;

DESCRIBE YOUR
9. [Wallet]: Light Blue and glittery, full of stuff and not of cash
10. [Brush]: black and white plastic wire brush...or whatever my sister's left out
11. [Toothbrush]: Silver and Grey Wave
12. [Jewelry worn daily]: usually nothing. But I have a necklace I wear often. Simple, but the beads are black with part of them painted in a glossy shell. It reminds me that dark can always have a layer of beauty and color to it ^_^
13. [Pillow cover]: floral whatever. o_o drooly perhaps?
14. [Blanket]: a green wool thing, and a white crosheted(sp) thing.
15. [Coffee cup]: No coffee for me =D But I love the tumbler mug my aunt made.
16. [Sunglasses]: My beloved blue goggles =D
17. [Underwear]: green and blue stripes for now
18. [Shoes]: Mah Doc Martin's sandles or my knee high boots
19. [Handbag]: the black one I got from Delia's for $3 ^_^
20. [Favorite top]: my red sweater with a white star
21. [Favorite pants]: hmm....I don't think I have one...I wear most of my jeans till they're shatters
22. [Cologne/Perfume]: none. maybe my shampoo?
23. [CD in stereo right now]: no CD, but the current MP3 is Ayumi Hamasaki's "Evolution"
24. [Tattoos]: none.
25. [Piercings]: only a cartilage piercing...not even the usual holes...I should get those eventually though.
26. [Wearing]: sandles, jeans, and a large Owen's Ring shirt.
27. [Hair]: in a low pony tail. whatever. it's my day off =p
28. [Makeup]: does chapstick count?

WHAT/WHO (is/are)
29. [In my mouth]: teeth, toungue, a bunch of glands, the basic essentials
30. [In my head]: usually way too much crap that I have to shift through.
31. [Wishing]: That I wasn't evil...darn I'm human. crap.
32. [After this]: probably eat something and read a bunch of fan fics while I do laundry. maybe watch the episodes John was super sweet and left for me
33. [Talking to]: my lovely blog readers =D
34. [Eating:] nothing but my own saliva
35. [Do you like candles]: I guess
36. [Do you like hot wax]: Sometimes
37. [Do you like incense]: Not really
38. [Do you like the taste of blood]: >_> <_< o_o yes.
39. [Fetishes]: I'm always going through kicks.
40. [If you could murder anyone and get away with it]: no comment. anyone who knows me knows that some people are asking to get their intestine's wrapped around a telephone poll
41. [Person you wish you could be with right now]: hm...I dunno. maybe tomo-chan?
42. [What/Who is next to you]: my mouse and tables full of clutter
43. [What do you want done with your body when you die]: I don't really care. It's only a shell. *shrugs*
44. [Do you believe in love]: Sometimes
45. [Do you believe in soul mates]: Sometimes
46. [Do you believe in love at first sight]: No
47. [Do you believe in Heaven]: yes
48. [Do you believe in forgiveness]: yes
49. [Do you believe in God]: yes
50. [What's something that you wish people would understand]: To walk in others shoes. That there are other people in the world. and To live each day to the fullest without being selfish
51. [What's something you wish you could understand better]: There are a lot of things...but mostly myself.
52. [What's one thing you want to make happen for tomorrow]: Finished laundry, Checked work schedule, and Balanced check book. ^_^ hey I can be logistic.
Tuesday, July 30, 2002 @ 10:09 a.m.

ok. back from vacation/wedding up in New Hampshire. ^_^ Much ranting as fallows.

The car trip wasn't as destructive as I thought it could be. I thought we were going to tear each other's hair out and maybe a limb or two along with that. But with proper CD players, temperment, and lots of road stops, we made it out alive and happy. Actually it was kind of nice because I managed to spend time with my family, and all of our individual life styles don't always facilitate that....but anyways.

New Hampshire was absolutely beautiful...the white mountains are similar in structure but definetly not in size to the one nearby. The Flume was just gorgeous, but rather intense at points. It all reminds me why people take vacations out to the country in the first place. It was very very beautiful. Gotta love nature.

The wedding was definetly one very sweet, sophisticated, and damn lucky ceremony. It was in the middle of a garden, the dresses were simple and elegant. The guys in nice suits not tuxes. A simple but religous wedding with a justice of peace. But I think the thing that made it was my cousin's smile. She really had an honest smile. That made me happy.

Oh yes. And distant family issues...as much as my immediate family lives independant life styles, my first gen relatives isolate themselves from the rest of the family. Most of the time unintentionally, but some intentionally. Family reunions are unheard of. Those are called weddings and funerals, and....well that last wedding since this one was 10 years ago. But it was fun to get back in touch with my cousins and aunts and a few uncles. Talk with some old ones, meet some new ones. It's always weird walking into a room and seeing people you never met but look similar to you. But anyways. It was cool that the family get-togeter was positive. Really. I have to say this because it's true. I've been to worse.

But down side. I've gotten WAY too much sun, and a few bug bites. Pain. Bad. Ug. I hope I recover enough tomorrow not to have to fake cheerfulness at work. Takes too much energy to fake cheerfulness.

Oh and My youngest sister said one of the most interesting quote after a certain pit stop on one of our long car rides.
"You learn that Port-a-Potty's aren't exactly your friend, but they certainly are your aquaintance."

Oh yes. one last thing. I thought I should post this cause I usually post dreams that affect me in reality. I don't know why this was important, but it's really really really really rare for me to dream the same dream twice. I could count on one hand the times I've done that. So that's why I'm posting it. Maybe it's important. I dunno.

I have a vision that somehow I'm involved in the mass destruction of the world, and I'll cause mass suffering. So I do everything in my power to stop it because I don't want it to happen. I don't want anyone to suffer. And there are all these things where I feel it building up, but I keep running away. I keep trying to escape it. But I couldn't escape, and it all ends up that some sort of comet or something like that is actually going to destroy the earth, and I get to stop it. So my vision was all mis-read. I misread that I was the one to destroy everything....it's just that I couldn't protect it all...

There was more to it...but that's the basic gist. It feels important just for the mere fact I've had it twice and not because I remembered right before I fell asleep. *shrugs* I'll have to think more on it I guess.
Monday, July 29, 2002 @ 07:33 p.m.

sooo....I spent my day over at tomo's playing FFX....yup...nothin interesting....I have work tomorrow...and then I'm going on "vacation" the day after till the 30th. Going to one of my cousin's wedding. ^ ^ I'm just worried about the 16 hour car drive....Thank you Saiyuki manga and CD player *_*

Quiz time cause I found some quizzes ^_^ Don't ya'll feel special?

Find your Realm of Influence at SailorOrion.com

What Marauder are you?

Created by legomyelfboy with help from goleafsgo

Another day off >D woohoo! I even thought I might have had to babysit the cute-but-needs-a-smack-once-in-a-while-but-I-can't-do-anything-cause-she's-a-little-princess-to-her-folks-so-she-runs-around-like-the-brat-she-is kid. *sighs* she really is adorable....and I've never seen any kid so spoiled in my life. except perhaps a few of the kids in my high school that got a new BMW for their 16th b-day or something. I hope she eventually grows up right...*sigh* but unless things change rather quickly Chelsea's going to be one selfish person this world doesn't need. She's still a good girl...sometimes

Oh well, enough of ranting on the child-that-makes-me-want-to-have-children-but-NEVER-have-children.

Ok, here's a quizzy cause it's my day off and I haven't done any of these in a while ^_^

1) Starting: 10:17am
2) Name: Erin
3) Nicknames: (Online) Animelily, BVD, DFD, PPH. (RL) Konnichiwa. yup that's it. I don't really attrack nicknames I suppose ^ ^;
4) School: College. Not saying much cause I don't want a stalker (and damn it, I've gotten them before and sometimes often >_< damn my niceness)
5) Email: animelily@yahoo.com =D
6) Eyes: Grey Blue
7) Height: 5'9"
8) Siblings: 2 younger sisters. I love em, but don't often like em
9) Been so drunk you blacked out: alchohol+me=bad
10) Missed school b/c it was raining: that would be amusing, the parents start thinking their kids would melt on the way to the bus. Too bad it never happened for me to laugh at
11) Set any body part on fire for amusement: hm...can't say I have. I like to play with wax though. Burning is something I'm too familiar with to really make an effort to get it a different way
12) Kept a secret from someone: ......of course not *fake smile*
13) Had an imaginary friend: *nods* Though it was usually my best friend from preschool that moved away >_<
14) Wanted to hook up with a friend: yup
15) Cried during a Flick: very rarely. But usually when it has something I click with...like the Green Mile. Sure it was about that guard and the inmate, but it was also about our own morality. Also a death scene every once in a while'll tear me up
16) Sprained any part of your body: hmm...my tail bone about 5 times. I dislocated a bone in my left wrist. twisted my ankle twice. But ironically no broken bones...cept maybe the tailbone. I have an affinity for falling on my butt >_<
17) Ever thought an animated character was hot: I usually am pretty assexual....but I still think Dilandau-sama is *_*
18) Ever at anytime owned a New Kids on the Block tape: I'm just slightly too young for that...though I had a friend that had a NKB sleeping bag....Now that I think about it...that's really ecchi XD 19) Prank called someone: In middle school. Maybe if prank calls would cheer up someone's day instead of piss em off. *shrugs* I'd laugh if I got an amusing prank.
20) Been on stage: yup, various choirs. even a play or two in middle school. I gave up on all that theater stuff a while back though. Brian wants me to join the Choir up at college though...

------------------FAVORITES------------------

21) Shampoo: Um....I switch around...usually whatever is hanging around the shower and does say "extra volumizing" or something like that...my hair is large enough as it is.
22) Soap: Shampoo. *shrugs* ya. I'm low maintance
23) Color: red and blue. I can't decide between the two
24) Day/Night: NIGHT O_O FOR ENMA'S SAKE NIGHT!!!
25) Summer/Winter: Winter of course ^_^ Summer's only good point is no school >_<
26) Online Smiley: =_= <~~sleepy face ^_^
25) Lace or satin: o_o er. um. satin? I guess >_>;
28) Cartoon or Anime Character: Dilandau-sama!! =D But I have a whole slew of peps I like XD It's over in da love section *point points*

-------------------IN GENERAL--------------------

29) Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: nopers. single and happy.
30) Like anyone?: hm. not really. a crush or two but nothing big
31) Who have you known the longest of your friends: Crystal. I've known her since 4th grade.
32) Who's the loudest: hm....Anna
33) Who's the shyest: John
34) Who do you go to for advice: Either Tomo, Nigaki, or Dixon

------------------------THE LAST TIME YOU...------------------------
35) Cried: talking to god 2 weeks ago
36) Cut your hair: o_o um...last summer =D
37) Been mean: o_o I'm not sure. maybe I'm mean to a certain degree all the time.
38) Been sarcastic: often.
39) Met someone new: South Side church this week
40) Talked to someone you have a crush on: South Side church this week
41) Missed someone: hm....sometime last week
42) Hugged someone: South Side church
43) Fought with your parents: a while ago...things don't really get completely conflicting. lucky me
44) Wished upon a star: hmm...been a while since I wished on stars...I usually wish on milkweed seeds
45) Laughed until you cried: probably sometime hanging with the Dixon-tachi or something. Especially if Opat was there.
46) Watched a sunrise/sunset: I watch them if I'm driving. But everyonce in a while I'll go out and look outside my house
47) Went to the beach at night: the last time I've even been to the beach period...aka about 5 years ago
48) Ate a meal: last night. I had lasanga while hanging with tomo ^_^
49) Felt lonely: most of the time >_<
50) Talked to someone online: last night. Brian and Omi-kun
51) What do you like the most?: I'm not sure. Possibly helping people, or when someone compliments my art.

-------DO YOU BELIEVE IN-------
52) God/Devil: of course
53) Love: *nods*
54) The Closet Monster: nope
55) The Big Bang Theory: yes. in a way.
56) Who named you: I'm not sure.
57) Favorite Band?: *points to side bar* But currently my fav is Plastic Tree
58) When is the last time you went to the bathroom: since I woke up which was....2 hours ago
59) What was the last thing you said online: I forget =/
60) What is sitting right next to you: my table full of clutter
61) What is your computer desk made of: my lap. (laptops are way too much fun)
62) What are the last 4 digits in your phone number?: 8376
63) What was the last thing that you ate?: Swedish fish (breakfast of champions XD)
64) Where would you go on your honeymoon: Alaskan Cruise perhaps? *_* I hear it's really beautiful, and I always wanted to see the Northern Lights ^_^
65) Who do you want to spend your life with?: o_o you're asking me this now? ^_^ hitorinano.
66) How many buddies do you have on your list: 88 o_o;;
67) How's the weather right now: overcast!! woohoo! *does a little dance*
68) Have you ever smoked pot: no, but I can identify the smell pretty easily
69 What did you do last night?: played FFX over at tomo's till they kicked me out XD
71) What are your favorite type of shoes: either my Doc Sandles *comfy comfy* or my knee high platform boots XD
72) How do YOU eat an oreo?: I eat it like a normal cookie. Bite. Chew. Swallow.
73) All-time favorite tv show: um....o_o; Marmalade Boy cause it started the addiction? =D?
74) Dream car: Porche. yup. I'll never get it though =D
75) What are your future goals?: Just live each day to the fullest. Never forget that there are people worse off than me. Learn Japanese fluently.
76) Favorite music: um...I like alot of different stuff. I just don't like screaming music (cept System of a Down cause they have style), or most country. Most stuff unoriginal
77) Favorite food: Swedish Fish, Animal Crackers, Soup. It all depends on the mood
78) Favorite movie: There are lots >_< um....*shrug*
79) Favorite days of this year?: June 17th. Christmas.
80) Are you too shy to ask someone out: usually.
81) If you could change your name...?: I don't know....I've always had this feeling that Erin didn't feel like my name. ^_^ Weird feeling I guess. I haven't figured out what the right one is yet.
82) Have you ever been in love: yes u_u
83) What is the stupidest thing you've ever done?: *coughs* um...ran into a parked car.
84) Your first son's name going to be?: dunno. I'd have to name it from what I feel about him. *shrugs* name things on the spot.
85) First daughter: dito. But I adore flower names. Lily, Iris, Violet, etc.
86) Favorite drink: I like Milk, and Green Tea usually. I'm a fan of Dr Pepper I guess.
87) Scary or happy movies better: which ever one is less predictable. I like a good surprize, too bad I rarely get em >_<
88) On the phone or in person: usually in person.
89) Lust or Love?: love
90) If you could change something about yourself: not always feel so alone
91) Do you consider cheer-leading a sport: o_o why would I care about sports...
92) Do you want your friends to do this survey?: naw. they never do surveys anyways
93) Time done: 11:23am

*yawns* time to take a shower.
Tuesday, July 23, 2002 @ 10:07 a.m.

DAIHEN DESU! DAAAAIIIHEN DESU! TAKO-CON'S BEEN CANCELED!!!

*shouts Pedro-like long wail to the heavens* NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO....*breaths in* OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO... *takes another breath* OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! *collapses*

;_; I wanted to cosplay......*sniff sniff* and and and....go to a con but not spend $100s just to go. *sniff sniff* and and *sniff* IT WAS GOING TO BE NEAR ME DAMN IT!

*more wailing to the heavens*

Ok. That's it for my bad news >_< *sniff*

But other than that, today was fun. ^_^ I hung out with tomo down on the south side....we....*sniff* went to a costume store *sniff* and were discussing cosplaying ideas *sniff*......WAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!! ;_;

There goes my plans for fun this fall/winter...well just goes to show that the future is so damn unpredictable >_< That's it! no more planning for me XD j/k j/k
Tuesday, July 23, 2002 @ 02:00 a.m.

I just finished watching the first episode of Saiyuki....I was disappointed. The opening's killer, the manga art is spectacular, the anime's mediocre. *pout pout* Why can't it be as pretty as the manga *pout pout*

my stomach's still gurgling, but only after I eat something...maybe I just won't eat anymore =D

j/k j/k XD Though I often worry about myself...I'm just shy of anorexic when I get upset. I'm not really upset at the moment, cept when I think too much about stuff. Mostly that someone in world actually hates me. Hate isn't something I've often been known to spur. But I'm not gonna think about it =D Stay positive! Wee! XD

I got Southside church tonight. hopefully it's cool. at least I can stay out late this time, no work tomorrow! wai wai! XD
Sunday, July 21, 2002 @ 03:18 p.m.

work was tough today...I only worked 5 hours...but I was feeling really sick today...plus I was the only permenent person in dining room...I got a drifting worker ever once in a while, but it was all up to me....meanwhile my stomach's saying "stop moving! ug! I think I'm going turn inside out" and my brain's going "urusai! stop being such a pain and I might let you rest in 5 hours." my stomach wasn't happy.

But either way, things still managed to get done, but not to my perfectionistic standards >_<

But I made a new wallpaper. Sorry about the people who won the hit counter contest...I WILL make your wallpapers soon...I just have no inspiration with the pictures. Gomene u_u

But you all have to listen to/sing/hum Eiffle 65's "I'm Blue" while seeing my newest wallpaper of Naoe Nagi from Weiss Kreuz. I overused brushes...but hey, it looks cool...or at least I like it ^_^ Nagi-kuuuuuun! >o<
Saturday, July 20, 2002 @ 07:27 p.m.

anime night. wow. for once the girls were outnumbered. usually it's dan (aka keitaro or ritsu) and john (stoic boy who dles stuff like mad) and a whole bunch of girls. Watched....uh....I forgot entirely what we watched....oh ya! Read or Die. Good show. Too bad I need the third episode. And the Saiyuki openings I've managed to dl...*_* Saiyukiiii....Nigaki has created a monster *snicker*

Other than that my life doesn't hold a whole lot of interest currently. Well it's better boring than bad I suppose. Got work tomorrow...and I bet my toes that I'm in dining room. *shrug*
Saturday, July 20, 2002 @ 01:01 a.m.

work was actually decent today....it was still pretty typically busy...but lunch rush wasn't as rushy. And I was also in a great mood. I worked with one of the dining room veterans which made me happy cause I didn't have to worry about things not getting done. I really AM anal retentive sometimes...and I was in a good mood...well just cause.

But I was humming either one of two songs all day. "Sink" by Plastic Tree (ryuuuuutaroooooo *_*) and "Shin Demo ii" from Weiss. *grins* I'm now such a Plastic Tree rabid fan. *evil laugh*

But I hung out with tomo cause I found out she DID in fact get back from vacation. ^ ^;; So I made puppy noices till tomo and rita threaten to get out the duct tape. *puppy whine* but I didn't do anything wroooong!

*rubs eyes* So now I'm tired and sleepy cause I'm still sort of sore from yesterday and then I worked 8 hours today. *grins* I'm am so buff. I should be a drummer just so I could finish off the arms and legs with a stomach too. Too bad my job doesn't finish off the stomach...*shrugs* ^_^ I'm just thankful it's not the ugly overly muscular ug Xp It's just me from lifting and running and carrying and wiping and scooping and pouring and more running.

myahhaha! I am so powerful! not XD!
Friday, July 19, 2002 @ 12:27 a.m.

*yawns* I'm tired....really tired...not sleepy...tired....and sore...I haven't been sore since I started working. I guess it was cause I had alot of negative energy I had to get out so I worked my ass off (figuratively and literally) at work today. I was assigned with a rather at dining room at least incompatant coworker. So I was like "ok. you wipe tables. I do everything else." So I did ice tea, dishes, floors, carpet, coffees, condiments, ice, counters, windows, and stock. Lunch rush was typically harsh. Also I had the manager that enjoys ordering people around. But I learned out to out manuver him. "Erin. can you broom the floors for me." "Ok. then can you take care of tables while I'm doing that?" ".......excuse me?" "ya. I need to take care of the tables but if you want me to broom, could you take care of that for me while I sweep?" "..............I'll broom." "^_^ ok"

Though he didn't even broom well. *snorts* figures.

But I'm feeling alot better. I talked to God about some stuff and figured out that I was believing alot of lies about myself...weither I told them to myself or someone else did. I'm not subhuman, I'm not unworthy, I'm not immoral, I'm not a freak. I'm loved, I'm special, I'm worthy of acceptance. ^_^

One quiz....I'm running out of good quizzes.

Oh well. Oyasumi. I have work tomorrow...I really hope I'm not set to dining room...I'm sore >_<
Wednesday, July 17, 2002 @ 11:44 p.m.

another philisophical day. I'm not going to go into detail why but let's just say it ain't pretty

sometimes I feel like I have the right to be angry...to fall under the "poor me" syndrome and shake my fist and start pointing the finger. Because people are blind, I'm subhuman. Because people are inconsiderate, I'm stoic. Because people are selfish, I'm a doormat. Because people are ignorant, I'm stupid. Because people are liars, I'm a liar. Because people are normal, I'm evil. Because people are normal, I'm a mistake. Because people are normal, I'm immoral. Because people are normal, I am a freak. I am a freak. I am a freak.

I always have to hold myself back...always. Because I know there's a Farfarello....or even a Muraki, hidden deep inside me. Sometimes I wish I wasn't such a deep rooted person....I'm envious of Tomo....her feelings are volitle, but it's a shallow pond. You get splashed easily, but never knocked down. There's just not enough power for that....But everything runs deep with me. Deep seated devotions, beliefs, emotions, love, habits, personality, hatred, bitterness, pain, and loneliness. I'm a big believer in forgiveness...and there are 6 people I've hesitated in forgiving. 2 of them have honestly been forgiven....2 are in the process...and 2 I have not and will not for a long time forgive. And yet it hurts me that I can't forgive these 2 yet...because their sins haven't yet stopped...they haven't stopped. They are "normal", they are "justified", they aren't "immoral", they aren't a "freak".

I hope this feeling blows over. Of hatred towards the ignorant world. And I hope the same strength that holds me, holds me from letting loose Muraki. Letting loose my true anger. Because when that happens people would suffer, and not just the target. And I never want that. Never.
Tuesday, July 16, 2002 @ 07:51 p.m.

work was really tiring today...just a combonation of people calling off, and then an unusual amount of customers for a monday, plus the first day of chocolate season. I've been slightly moody *shrugs* I suppose that's unusual for me since I'm pretty stable emotionally. But then again my moods are as Nigaki put it once "Happy ^_^. Sad ^_^. Tired ^_^. Angry ^_^. Sun >_<." So lets just say I'm no Kagura. Hatsuharu maybe but not Kagura. That would be Tomo *grin*

I'm on a new kick. Dashboard Confessionals. Hey, it's the definition of Emo. Lots of fun weepy angsty lyrics. I like "Anyone, Anyone" and the lyrics to "Screaming Infidelities" and "The Brilliant Dance" is angst to the max XD Angst! Angst! Wee! *dances*

I'm also re-listening to the CD of Jrock mp3's Nigaki gave me....I really like Plastic Tree and one or two Malice Mizer songs. ^_^ Still love belting my lungs out to Utada Hikaru on the way back from work though. =D
Monday, July 15, 2002 @ 10:23 p.m.

South Side Church, or whatever it's called....everyone piles into the JPers apartment? Weird sunday night meetings? That thing I go to? Oh well. ^_^ It doesn't need a name.

But it was another killer meeting...I don't know why I love it so much...maybe because it's very relational, open, and real. 3 things I appreciate. Church in pews makes me sick and sad. I love being with people who know you can worship God by handing out pixie stix to random people. ^_^ genki daaaaa.

And I'm gonna follow the crowd on this one and do the cowboy bebop quizzeh. ^ ^

what's your cowboy bebop theme song?

Ok more ranting. Spoilers cause I don't really feel like guarding much today. I have no idea why I'm being so unguarded on here anymore...but I suppose that's a good thing:

Anime Night was fun, although a little small. John gave me the Weiss Kreuz OVAs....pretty. and I was gasping when they killed Omi-mi! Omi-miiiiii!! But the ending was so copped out and cheezy...it was actually funny at the plot hole you could stick a Suburban in. Well at least I thought it was cool to see the guys get sliced and diced.....Sure I was glad they were alive in the end...but well...maybe my head's not screwed on right or something...I thought it was cool. *shrug* We watched the Ritsu episode of Furuba in dedication to our very own Ri-chan-san, Dan, who could not be present do to the loss of him by Red Lobster. And then watched the Wedding Singer. Hey, it's not anime...but it's got a Billy Idol cameo so there. =p

But I got an interesting call in the middle of the meeting...I guess I should explain today's events. I had work today as usual. I got off at around 2, lucky me. I was in a good mood and I remember how much I love it when people visit me at work. I was thinking about visiting dan and kathryn at their work and I remembered kathryn was working till 3:30 because I remember useless trivia like that. So I went to visit her. Nothing important happened...listened to bad 80's music and drove through McD's. I thought it was enjoyable. I felt like I got a friend back. I went home and got ready for anime night because I figured dan would be coming but found out later he WAS in fact working that day. I should have visited him...maybe I'll visit him tomorrow. I doubt HE'D feel the same way. But anyways. I get a phone call not from Kathryn, but from Jaime saying basically I made her feel uncomfortable and to fuck off. Ok sure I made up the fuck off part but I don't doubt that it wasn't there.

Summary. I felt like I had a friend back. It was obviously one sided and if kathryn never wanted to speak to me again *snort* her loss. But it was cowardly, and I'm not trying to be mean, but it WAS cowardly to have jaime deliver messages. If she wanted to say something she should have said it herself, there. It wouldn't have been hard. Just "erin, don't visit me at work. leave me alone. i like my life without you." and I'd say "fine. sayonara. *drive drive drive*"

Note to said party: Kathryn, I know you hate being the guilty party, and ironically very often you take the blame for others. But this time I did nothing wrong. It was a meaningless gesture of niceness like the other things I do. If you felt uncomfortable that's fine. I don't really care. But you should have told me. Not had someone you knew I was already pissed off at deliver your messages because you don't have the guts to do it yourself. "because you felt bad." urusai. I'd like a little bit more honesty from someone, especially someone I actually had some sort of faith in. I'm not saying this to make you feel bad. Because that would be cruel and I don't want to be cruel, ever. But you need to stop hiding behind "feeling bad" and start actually "being nice". AKA get some damn balls and actually say how you feel instead of getting someone else too...oh and don't pretend like it's a one time occurance....because I don't forget. I forgive, but I never forget.

End Rant.

Nigaki gave me the Saiyuki volumes ^___^ I have to give her the money tomorrow...I wasn't able to do it tonight cause I still have to make some deposits >_< But oooooh pretty art *_* the art is really gorgeous....I'm wondering if I should try and translate it myself or find some translations online....hmmmm *starry eyed at the pretty art*
Friday, July 12, 2002 @ 11:08 p.m.

*wiggles toes* my life is on another length of meaningless work related stuff. I can't even hang out with tomo cause she's on vacation.

But I have a quiz and some amusing amusement:

I'm Mysterious Cute!! made by Jen
Shy and complexed! Just b/c you steer clear from crowds doesn't mean you can't be cute! People are drawn to your private and introverted life. You're quirky and one-in-a-million.

Entertainment number One (o_O you really DO have to wonder how they fit)
Entertaiment number Two (Fav Quotes: "mmmmmmm 1.5 pie" and "tis the bitter stench of death")
And I don't have a three...maybe later o_o;
Thursday, July 11, 2002 @ 09:11 p.m.

I'm going to rant cause this is my blog and I can cry if I want to cry if I want to cry if I want to. I'm in a philisophical mood. I'm probably going to say a bunch of stuff really out of character but not really cause I feel them most of the time but just hide it....either way run away while you still can. I'll just blame it on chocolate season. >_o

My opinions on love. I think I'm honestly happy for Karthyn. I'm glad she found someone to make her happy. But I'm still in my rut of I wish love for everyone but myself. Everyone can go be happy with someone, just don't fall for me. But then again I always end up getting the types that don't usually hang out with girls, but I hang out with because I'm too damn nice or something like that. *sigh* They don't like me. They like a person. Anyone. There are a few exceptions to this, but I could count them on one hand. Even a shop techer's hand....

But I have some major self esteem issues. I don't think I'm worth it and I have to work to create some sort of value for myself...I think it's the Tsuzuki syndrome or something. I want to help the world and not hurt anyone...because all I feel like is different and sometimes not even human. I want to help people...sometimes because I really do want to help people....but also because it gives me this sense that I'm bettering the world instead of blemishing it like I already am. I feel so alone sometimes....I think that's my most deadly temptation...loneliness...It swallows me up alot. I depend on my friends way too much because of it. When I'm with them I don't feel so different. So alone. So useless. Such a freak.

It's raining....I love rain....but it's often a reminder of one of the reason I feel so different....nights too....I love the dark...and the stars....but I only see stars on clear days...and that means I had to be shut indoors that day....

Sure...I'm one of the lucky ones...and I know that there are enough "poor me"'s out there....but...just for once I want to say I hate it....

well enjoy this post while it lasts...it's not going to stay up for long....
Tuesday, July 9, 2002 @ 02:21 p.m.

It's been way too long since I posted quizes....so quess what. Quiz time =D

I am 55% Goth

Oh My Goth! You Goth, Girl. There is a good chance I am bi. Freakiness pumps through my viens, but I can still laugh at myself.

Take the Goth Test at fuali.com

I am 51% Emo

Well.. I've made the cut! Now I'll go buy some promise rings and knit myself a sweater.

Take the Emo Test at fuali.com

I am 52% Internet Addict

I am pretty addicted, but there is hope. I think I'm just well connected to the internet and technology, but it's really a start of a drug-like addiction. I must act now! Unplug this computer!

Take the Internet Addict Test at fuali.com

You are Kusakabe Marron | Kaito Jeanne

You are generous and talented, though often widthdrawn. You tend to have just a few close friends, rather than many. You appear very cheerful and enthusiastic, but struggle to keep up with what others expect of you. In the end, your perseverance and sacrifices help you pull through.

Take the "What Magic Girl are you?" Quiz

Life is good. lan lan lan lan lan! ^_^ maskoredo!! =D
Tuesday, July 9, 2002 @ 12:47 a.m.

My internet server was down for today....good thing I ended up working on my day off babysitting...I would have gone nuts all day without a car, and no internet....

But my boredom birthed this. The new layout. As usual. The HTML sucks and partially stolen from Nigaki. But I had way too much fun with graphics....I don't know why but I love manipulating images ^_^....that and everything TsuxHi *_* (though there was this TERRIBLE fic I read once....it was so OCC that I don't even count it as TsuxHi...)

But but but...I feel genki. even though I chased around a brat that makes me want to have kids and never have kids all at the same time.

Last night I went down to the southside because a few of my good friends are starting a church down there. *_* Holy cow it was killer. I should have expected that from those guys though. Philisophical, but accepting, but non-conforming, but fun, but relaxed, but still sweet, but not naive. It was great...not to mention you gotta love "church" in an apartment that the tiles were currently off the ceiling so they could clean the nasty water stains.

^_^ my only problem...everyone stays super late and if I have work the next morning I'd be ready to stab stuff.

Oh well. I actually like the matching wallpaper this time...Enjoy =D *poses with new layout*
Monday, July 8, 2002 @ 11:48 p.m.