I'm starting to catch a cold. It's annoying.

Good parts of the weekend:
Steak on a Stake.
Beautiful country drive.
Seeing my Puppy.
Honey Sticks.
Puppy.
Barely any EPP problems with a small exception.
Discovering Fuze White Tea.
Red Hot Chilli Peppers Greatest Hits WHILE on a country drive.
Puppy.
Sarah's nephews.
Puppy.

The bad parts of the weekend? Well I'd rather not talk about those.

I need to call my mom. She called while I was on campus at the free movie thing. Harry Potter 3 baby.

Oh I might as well review that.

HP3. Definitely a different style all together. It seriously shows through. But I still like it. I thought it was well done. The pace moved a little too scientifically for my liking, but I get nitpicky when the director's good enough to do a shot of the whomping willow's leaves. And wtf happened to Hermione's hair?! It looks good now! It's not supposed to! It's strange!!
Though...I do have to say it loses it's charm this way...I dunno...HP=fluffy and cute. Then again...as the books progress it's supposed to get a little more grittier and darker. I liked the first Dumbledore better =( Though this guy's beard is cute. I like the little tiething at the end of it. *such a detail freak*

Either way....Mixed reviews for me on HP3. I liked how it got grittier, but then it lost something in the process. Oh, though mucho kudos for Hermione giving Malfoy a shiner.

Campus Kiosk update~! Ya!

Classes are great, though I've been having trouble with my kanji in Japanese. I suck at Kanji. My mind just goes "....*beeeeeeeeepppp*" when I stare at kanji too long....at least I get stroke order down well though.

I made a sort of out of bounds purchase...a new CD player. Panasonic cause those things last forever. I mean the last Panasonic CD player I had lasted for three years (though I broke the spring on it and I couldn't find my cute little phillips to fix it). I mean I know most people they're lucky if their player lasts a year. Either way...I sit on the bus and walk around campus and my mind gets bored and cranky. Now I have happy music~!

Bunny is doing well. She's really adjusted to the apartment and the people in the apartment. Well...all except the fourth roommate. No one's really adjusted to her. No clue. But BunBun is disarmingly cute. Seriously disarmingly cute. So cute you have to scold her often with "Stop being so cute! Stop it I say!"

I'm looking forward to this weekend. Sarah and I are traveling down and going to the Maryland Renfest. Not only do I get to see Puppy, but Sarah's nephews are totally adorable. I have such baby envy sometimes. I love kids.

I'm torn for tonight's activities.....Sci-fi club is showing Battle Royale, but there's an Allies meeting and it'd probably be a good idea to get involved in that and make some friends.

I suppose I can talk about each of my classes....

Japanese: Difficult. Moves fast. And I have a hard time remembering every little thing...but I enjoy languages and this one in particular. I made a new friend named Chika-san. (I'm not sure how it's spelled...she's Chinese). But we talked about J-pop and Anime and Manga and I'm letting her borrow my MiniMoni interview tapes. She's also into FMA which is rather interesting....but anyways. Very nice and we're going to study together. (cept for Kanji...cause she already knows them. *pout*)

Arabic: I love writing in it. I mean...I've already only learned 5 letters and I already love writing in it. It just feels so comfortable. The teacher reminds me of...well if I was a teacher I think I'd turn out to be something like her. It's a difficult language, but I enjoy it.

Asian Lit and Media: Rather enjoyable. The professor is a really passionate guy. You can just tell he loves the subject matter alot. We have alot of readings, but it's a very laid back sort of class that fosters discussion. We've specifically been watching "Raise the Red Lantern" which I think is really interesting. Either way it's enjoyable.

Star Trek Seminar: .....scary. But I think I'll be ok. I mean in terms of easiness I think things'll be fine. But everyone is such a huge fan x_x;; I mean....I've never even seen it...I've seen like....2 episodes cause various people sat me down and forced me to. But it IS talking about ethics and I think that's fun. Where lines blur etc etc.

Confucianism: Dr. Ng is friggin awesome. I keep forgetting how much fun he is. I have readings up the wazoo, but that's ok cause Dr. Ng is friggin awesome. Plus I have an added extra weekly entertainment. Bwhahaha. *still laughing* I think the only real problem with this class is that it's 3 hours long. I need a mental break once in a while for me to space out and defrag. Then again my brain works on a very ON or OFF system. It's either all there or not there at all.

Ah well~ Update over!!!
And I got an illegal copy of Photoshop from Liz. I dunno. I'm too lazy to figure out Gimp. So new layout WILL be on the way now. I swear!! Maybe even tonight =)

I'll get a new layout up. I really will.

School is good. I enjoy pretty much all of my classes though it's certainly a jump in workload. But I'm determined to work hard. I have a good reason to.

But if people would stop telling me how to run my own life as if they know better, that'd be really nice. You know, that's cool and all when you're a kid and it's your parents and you're just learning how things work. But I fucking do not need people telling me now.

I know people have good intentions, and it's hard for me to refute good intentions...but no one is living my life but me. If I mess up, guess what, I pick up the pieces.

I know I'm probably going to be percieved as alot more cold and mean. I know there are people that already feel that way already. But I know this is a change I should have made years ago. And if there's anything that I am it's someone who is always trying to make things better.

If you can't take the hint from this I'll be talking to you personally next time, or I already have made my statements.

I'm all up at school. It was actually relatively painless. I was seriously expecting things to be exhasting and more than likely very detrimental for my health. ...but I've been fine.

I was honestly expecting this to be one of those times that I collapsed in some fever or something. x_x I mean, it HAS been Murphy's week.

But things are looking really up.

In other news, I might get to spend more time with Puppy two weeks from now at the Maryland Renfaire.

Books were so friggin cheap this year. $250 something for everything. (Alternatively Liz spent $250 on one book alone)

But I believe Murphy's Week is over. Let's hope.

I'm also thinking of changing how I introduce myself as. It's been sloshing around my brain for years and I think I'm going to introduce myself as my middle name from now on. I don't expect people who aready call me whatever to change. But I'm going to try and introduce myself as Leigh. I'll see how that goes.

What happened to Nigaki's blog?

Fourth roommate just got here. Gotta go!

This has been what has been dubbed "Murphy's Week". You know. Murphy's law, Murphy's week.

Just when I was barely getting over all the dizziness...the wound became infected. At first I thought there was this rancid smell somewhere around my house...it just happened that the rancid smell was coming from my own mouth and nose thanks to all the bacteria swarming around in the area that once was my impacted right wisdom tooth.

So now I'm on antibiotics, thouroughly exhasted, and I haven't even started packing for school.

There is some good news though...my younger sister wanted to go to school on Saturday which left me either going up friday or sunday. And Sunday is seriously out of the question. I can't get adjusted in the apartment AND get prepared for classes in two days while I'm exhasted and fighting an infection. No. Just. No.

But at the last minute she found out she has to be up there Friday. So now I get to go up Saturday. So go me. I get an extra day to rest and pack and I'm going to seriously cherish it.

At least all the swelling is down too. I won't have to explain to people why it looks like someone smacked me in the face repeatedly. Though I still can't eat foods where I have to open my mouth very wide....so ya. lots of soup. Better than lots of mashed potatoes.

I should stop complaining. The antibiotics make me feel a whole hell of a lot better. That and I'm not having trouble with my insurance company like I was before. It's kinda nice to have my medication cost $10 instead of a $80. And no one is dead, killed, missing in action, or otherwise. So thus ends my complaining.

I'll make a new layout soon, I swear.

...I have Benjy's lipstick and I don't know what to do with it.

I'm feeling alot less dizzy which is a good thing. Especially for my smell...I mean if I was so dizzy from just walking to the bathroom how the hell am I going to take a shower?

So yes. much destankifying today.

My face still looks like I gained a hundred some pounds from the chin up. My neck is still slender by my cheeks are all puffed like a chipmunk.

Puppy had found a little Japanese Bobtail kitten and now is trying to find a good home for her...I'm really hoping things will work out and I can take her. She's named Bunny and I've heard is incredably cute. Puppy calls her Gremlin once in a while. *laughs* Really really friendly and on the vocal side. Still needs a little training, but still. That and I'll need to clip her claws like I do for Shu. But for the most part a very sweet energetic kitten.

*sighs* Why does something as simple as "why didn't you call when you were in a traffic jam and knew you couldn't make curfew" become a huge yelling match so early in the morning. Courtney really does worry me. I really hope she grows out of her self centeredness but I'm not sure she will. *sighs* Could be worse...but I still care about her. I mean just the fact it has to be a screaming match between her and my father gets to me. x_x; What even happened to nice quiet discussions?

mm...spacing out. sleeeepppyyyy....well that's not unusual I guess.

But I'm feeling much better!! ya!! I don't like being all bed ridden. *needs to be active!!*

I miss Nigaki...I never really got a chance to repair things between her and I. I hope we can. I don't want to lose her friendship. She's too good a person for that. *has been a very neglectful person this summer*

First day of period + anemia + general anestetic for wisdom teeth operation = me feeling dizzy just to go up an go to the bathroom.

Just wanted to let you all know.

x_x; *goes back to bed now*

....I'm learning how to not be so nice.

Well....not nessarily not being so nice. But learning to be stubborn when I need to be. Stop being gentle with people who are far too spoiled.

My younger sister Courtney has worried me for years....I kept worrying that she'd grow into a bad sort of person. I was just hoping that it'd be some sort of phase. You know...I mean everyone goes through a self-centered phase? Right? They grow out of it? Right?

...*sighs* never did. In fact just ripened with age.

If there's anything that I try to do it's to learn from my mistakes. I was far too gentle for years to someone that needed to be told "No" once in a while....and now my perpetual gentleness has turned Courtney the same way.

...so I got to deal with my sister's tantrum. and Puppy's looking into suing for phone harassment just to put her into a tough position. And her saying things like "Your girlfriend turned you into a horrible person" "Oh no. I just don't put up with your bullshit anymore." "She's a bitch!" "Takes one to know one." "I'm telling Dad!!!" "and years to come it'll haunt you." "I don't care!!" "And that makes you a good Christian." "You're not one to talk." "Neither are you. Never Ever Ever tell me how you felt so close to God. Ever Again." "JUST GET OFF THE PHONE get off the phone get off the phone get off the phone get off the phone get off the phone get off the phone get off the phone get off the phone get off the phone get off the phone get off the phone" "*just starts playing with a puzzle* You realize I invented this game...when I was 3....the year you were born." "get off the phone get off the phone get off the phone get off the phone get off the phone get off the phone get off the phone get off the phone get off the phone get off the phone get off the phone get off the phone" "*keeps playing with puzzle*" "get off the phone get off the phone get off the phone get off the phone get off the phone get off the phone (~20 minutes later) get off the phone get off the phone get off the phone get off the phone get off the phone get off the phone get off the phone get off the phone" "*Puppy and I laugh and generally feel overall invigorated*"

Usually I don't associate with such childishness...I let her have her way. And I've done it for too long. She needs to have someone tell her no and not let such behavior be allowed. This seriously has to stop. I've always managed to be a big sister for my younger cyblings and now I get to be the tough love sort of sister for one of them.

*sighs* I'm not sure I'd be able to undo the damage of years of spoiling though...I'll try...but I'm not sure I'll succeed...I'll still try though.

In other news I saw two movies today. Alien vs Predator, and Napolean Dinomite (sp?). Both got horrible reviews...and I liked both of them.

Sure. Don't be expecting silly things like plot and character development in AvP. But if you're looking for two monsters beating the #$@# out of each other...well then there's a movie for you. That and there was this weird romance-ish sorta thing between the Ripley-esque main female and one of the Predators....though Benjy and I were joking that if they kissed and the Predator gave her tongue, she'd die.

And Napolean Dinomite...omg. The dance made the movie. The whole movie. Wow. Amazing. Yeah.

And I was getting Wendy's today and pulled up to the drive through and discovered Kathryn worked there. I wonder if that's a sign to make ammends or not. I know I'm certainly over her and don't have any hard feelings. In fact because of everything I learned alot about myself, my beliefs, and just relationships in general. That and if we didn't part ways I wouldn't be with my Puppy now would I?

*sighs* and now Puppy withdrawl... Did I mention long distance relationship suck? Cause they do. And not in the good way.

Ok. More adventuring accounts.

Thursday August 5th. My Puppy arrived. Because of various business I wasn't sure I was even going to make it to see him arrive at the train station so I recruited Dan (still seriously appreciate it Dan-poo. Mucho thanks) to be there....but I managed to get there and hide behind the stairs and then pounced. Much cuddling squealing overall happiness ensued. Puppy, Dan, Afton and I all kidnapped Benjy and then we all went out for Habachi (Afton didn't join cause of vegitarianess or something). Plenty of fun/sarcasm/beatings/and consumption of meat ensued. We then dropped off Benjy and traveled up to Mt Washington. Icecream and running around looking at the view were definitely wonderful. We were all tired though and decided to go back to our respective homes/home away from home. Watched Magnolia. Got into a fight with my little sister Courtney. *laughs* Puppy nearly punched her in the face. Cuddled anyways. Slept.

Friday. Woke up. Made Pancakes. For the mass majority of the day we just managed to have one massive date. Drove all over including to pet stores. Puppy really wanted to get this sweet little python. Seriously cute. Had a name picked out for her and everything. Went to Sarris's and the South Side. Came home and watched the rest of Magnolia. I'm pretty sure our trip to Borders was today too... Puppy's such a book addict. How the hell do I always manage to surround myself with book addicts? *laughs* Had more fun with Puppy. Slept.

Saturday. Woke up. Went downtown to meet my Aunt Jane. Went to a vegitarian resturant that also served meat dishes for which Puppy was grateful and talked about philisophical stuff and then went out for Bubble tea and more philisophical conversation. Then we got dropped off at the Incline. Rode it up and watched the view. My aunt then picked us up and dropped us off at the Science Center and we go run amuk. We play around in everything and have a good time and watch a Planetarium show. Nigaki arrives home and we go over to Benjy's so Puppy can meet Nigaki. Things weren't the best but we both understood that everyone has their bad days. We get home and get some sleep.

Sunday. Traaaaiiin daaaay. Already explained that chaos.

Monday. Already explained that too and all the stuffies in Anapolis.

Tuesday. =) Puppy's birthday. We watch Balto before our good friend Jarin arrives and we head over to the Science Center in Baltimore. (Two Science Centers in a 3 day span. *grins* It's cause we both like Science Centers) Much running amuk and discussion on space. We watched an uber cheesy Planetarium program, but the Imax program made up for it, "Sacred Earth" this documentary made by Disney. Basically about the various Shamanistic/In tune with Nature-Balance-Etc Cultures around the world, with spectacular generally-timelapsed photography of each of the culture's areas. Really fun. We then went out for icecream. Jarin said bye and then we met up with Sam again and had dinner at Damon's and had them sing a birthday song for Puppy in which case Puppy got severly embarrassed and was overall very adorable. Went and saw Harold and Kumar for which I recommend. Came home and slept.

Wednesday. Went to a local state park and hiked a bit then spent the rest of the day mostly wandering around the mall. Bought a couple of things. Get caught *coughpurposelycough* in the rain and ran around. Sloshed around the mall completely soaked. Got home and dried off and then rented The Last Unicorn and The Mothman Prophesies. Watched, cuddled, slept.

Thursday. Today. We woke up early and we got picked up by Jarin on a roadtrip back to my house. U-turned for Dunkin Donuts. Got lost in West Virginia. Even made a stop at the same type of resturant I work at. Arrived home....Missed....Missing....yeah...*sigh*

....*sigh* ....Long distance relationships SUCK ASS!!!!!!!

Worst part about having one of the most wonderful times is when it's over...

...there will be more. There will be more.

Ok ok. I know I've sort of neglected this. Which is bad. I've also neglected some other things too, but we're not going to get into that.

Currently in Baltimore right now. Having a seriously fabulous time. Puppy and I got to hang out with Liz and Sarah yesterday and just overall dicking around Anapolis. And yes. A quarter bottle of Sapporo can and will get me rather tipsy/toasted. But it was alot of fun.

I suppose I can do this all backwards. So here goes.

Yesterday: woke up, watched "Lady and the Tramp", got a free drink from Panera's, hung out with Puppy's good friend Sam, drove around and waited in traffic, met up with Liz and then Sarah and then we all had fun around Anapolis.

The day before: due to car politic stuffies we got put on a train. So we woke up early and got there only to find out that there was a train derailment and we had to get shipped onto a bus heading for a connecting station, which probably wouldn't be all that bad if it weren't for the fact we didn't eat a big breakfast on the assumption we'd get food on the train. So we get on a bus....and the bus overheats. But it gets fixed and we're on our way again. And we managed to get to our connection train station...3 minutes before our train is supposed to leave. We're all celebrating about it...till we find out the cafe car isn't open....so come 4:00 in the afternoon we're still foodless. When we finally made the connecting train in Philly...I never knew hot dogs could taste that good. my god....Either way we made it back pretty exhasted and just sort of crashed.

More adventures to come....dun dun DUUUNNNNN

I'll get a new layout up here sometime...as soon as I get Gimp on my new compy...and friggin some FTP access program. I just get frustrated without a new layout *pout*

gah. I'm sleepy.

Found out my schedule yesterday. I'm not going to have a day off for the next two weeks. I'm gonna end up like Nigaki now and Liz last year in that "What's up?" is always going to be replied with "x_x"

I know my limits though. So when I start shaking, I'm calling in sick. Not gonna let myself burn out. Burn out isn't fun.

At least my father can't complain about how I don't care about raising money - -;

I'm going to break the news to them soon...two of them already know but don't know that I know. No wait. Lindsay knows that I know...or something. gah. It's confusing. It's time for me to be honest to them already even if I sometimes feel like I'm risking everything....But it's worth it. It really is. Both for myself and for my sweet Puppy.

The one I'm worried about most is my father. He's a good father, I'd hate to lose him...but he's very very stubborn when it comes to some things. Extremely religious. And....yeah. *sigh*

I just don't want to lose them....I may not lose them all...but I'd be so easy to. So very very easy.

I don't even know how to do it either. I hope some chance just pops up within the next couple days...or something. If not I guess maybe. gaahh!

Eh. This is already a step in that it's typed up here in my public journal. Bleh....*worried*

Yesterday was fun. Much hanging out with Dan and Afton and Benjy. Also lots of horrible perpetually NOT normal dinner conversation. Wow I love them.

After we all played in Toys R Us. And Benjy got his spiderman costume for the opening last night....in baby size. I saw BenBen in all the scraps that once were baby spiderman PJs....wow. Yeah. And this was AFTER going to his house and watching Gackt doing a Para Para dance...and then a live concert with him and about a dozen grown people in fuzzy cat costumes with giant heads dancing around. Only the japanese and only Gackt. Ohh yes.

I really do believe I have some of the very best friends in the world. I have no idea on how I became this blessed. If it's Karma I must have done something very very good.

Wee~! Ever since I've gotten back I've been working the midnight shift at work. This is a-ok by me since I feel more natural nocturnal, but I just worked an 11 hour shift yesterday.

< BITCHING >
Who the fuck knew that Dave Matthews Band would be playing. Man that was painful.

And I hurt my back. I never hurt my back. I have absolutely no clue as to how I hurt my back. My best guess is that I hurt my feet (cause THOSE hurt) and the bad posture from holding my feet so they'd hurt less had thrown my back into something funky while I was working. Hopefully a day of rest'll all it'll take to heal.

Oh. And my father decided to enforce this thing where no one has administrtive access on the computer except for him. I mean how the hell am I going to make updates on things? Codecs? Photoshop brushes? Virus definitions? Nope. Can't do any of that.

*whines* I just want to play on the machineeeeeeeeee~!

< /BITCHING >

I should call Ben or Dan and see what's up. It won't be the same without Nigaki but things'll still be alot of fun. Maybe a sushi adventure! Mmmmm Sushi...

Good news~! The second operation went wonderfully. No complications. And the doctor said she's well enough to drive on her own. Which means I'm getting kicked out *laughs*

I'm going to miss her though. I learned alot about my heritage too. Not all of it good, but then again things rarely are.

I'll be heading back this afternoon.

I'm going to miss her. I'm glad I could have been of so much help. I worry, but things are good.

Life is good.

Oh, and she gave me Pewter polish, so I get to have a really wonderfully challenging project when I get home. I'm gonna make everything sparkle!!

I'm off to my aunt's again. Second operation and what not. Which is good. Though I won't be able to comment on anyone's entries or anything.

My grandmother's eye gets better everyday. Though it's a little weird seeing one eye a much clearer light blue than the other. But she says she sees out of it better after it drains in the morning. (every morning it gets sort of bloody from sleeping on it or something, after that goes away it's fine)

I'm glad.

Oh and I manage to get stuffed like a Christmas turkey. The other day I wasn't sure if I should get ice cream or not......Yes. I said that right. I actually had to think about whether or not I wanted ice cream.

I miss you all! You all rock! And Dan you had better eat something big or I'll have to hog tie you and force food down your throat when I get back. No starving for you!!

My grandmother is doing much better. In fact, she's starting to see out of the operated eye much clearer now. And it's only been 3 days. Though there is alot of bruising, but that's to be expected.

And Sassy was being so good recently...and then she does things which are like "GAAAAAAHH!!" Like just after a good praise of peeing outside, she does number two indoors. - -;;;

She'll probably start barking soon if I don't go give her some attention....are all Westies attention fiends? I've heard in passing that it's a breed thing.

I love you all. You all rock. And things are good. Therefor life is definitely going well.

Oh!! And wanna hear something that really rocks? I hit a new record. 150lb's. Definitely a sign of the blessings in my life. *grin* Then again I'm one of the very few females out there who think it's a good thing to gain a little weight. Means I'm Happy!! Yaaa!

Ok. Now time to take care of the puntable being. *laughs*

Ok. I'm back at my grandmothers after our week long adventure in the wilds of Cleveland.

The operation was a success. There was some complications of the lens sticking to the cornea but it turned out just fine. We get to go back next week to get the next eye done.

Weeeeee~ um. Yup.

And why oh why do children have to be so difficult? Sassy the puppy child really enjoys peeing everywhere. And the thing is she KNOWS better. Really. She knows. She just does it to make a statement.

Gah. Children.

Well I'm going to be waking up at 6am and heading off to my grandmother's. I'll be on enough to leave an entry or two on here, so any contact can go through here or my cell. I'll be spending the majority of my time helping her around though so.

I'll miss you all, but this is something that definitely has to be done. I'd be very angry with myself if something ever happened and I didn't do anything to help. Very very angry with myself.

Either way. Good night!

I'm going to be leaving Wednesday for three weeks up to at my grandmothers and also the hospital. I really hope I can be as much of a help as possible, and at best that I barely have to help at all. My grandmother's health is definitely up there in importance for me.

I dunno. She's very important to me. She's always been strong, independant, and generous. She's not perfect, but then that just makes me care about her more. And now that she's in need, even if it sort of messes up my summer, I can't think of any other way I'd rather have it be.
Wait. Never mind. I thought of one. Her not sick at all.

But heh...that's life.

I'm pondering making a new layout before I go, just because I won't have a whole lot of access to a computer, much less photo editting software. Mmm....maybe tomorrow.

I'll still blog though! *waves*

I really need to do something nice for Nigaki for letting me bum off her webspace. Gaaaaah. Can't think. Work stole my brain.

I kinda miss the birdies, but I'm glad they grew up well. I hope they're doing well and didn't get eaten by some pet cat or something.....or DAN! >_>! *Stare*

Grrr.. Shu was a bad rat.

Alright. He's been kinda down ever since Yuki passed on. So I thought about getting him a companion. Checked out the pet stores around and manged to find one that carried rats. Decided on a smaller male rat cause I figured it be worse if he was bigger than Shu and Shu felt threatened.

Shu attacked him anyways. Poor thing.

He got a few little scratches from him but I brought him back to the pet store and they were fine about it and thought he'd heal fine. I asked if they had any spayed females or did spaying and they said they didn't.

So I don't know what to do. Shu'll just have to be alone I guess.

I'm rather angry at him though...but I still feel bad. That he'll have to be alone.

Today was interesting to say the least.

Saw Van Helsing with Nigaki, Dan, Ben and Ben's dad. Wow......ok. It's not an action flick. It's not a horror flick. It's a comedy. It should be taken as such.

Wow...the cheese was amazing. *laughs*

Though I thought the arrow gun thingy was uber snifty cool. I want to make one.

I also had a wonderful surprize when I let my dog out this evening....an empty nest.

*smiles* I thought it'd miss them...but I'm glad to see them go. Really glad. I was really rooting for them. They grew up just fine after all.

Weee~ Here's my Moon Child review...cause that's the fun I had yesterday. Other than chasing Princess Benjy around with a box of Krispy Kremes.

Moon Child. Ok. Overdramatic at points. And the size of the moon would have tidally ripped alot of stuff apart. But I really liked the ending. It was developed well...and people were actually mature about circumstances. Everyone was just doing what they thought best. I mean it was angsty but it wasn't emo. Like Hide was all "I suck cause I'm a vampire and I have to live off of others. Blah blah angst." but he was mature about it. I mean, Hide told Gackt that he was selfish when he was, and he was right.

But I really liked the ending. Maybe I just like a happy ending where everyone is together and not stuck in conflict or covered in blood. Peace. I like happy endings.

So in other words, over dramatics aside as well as possible confusion conserning the constant switching back and forth from Japanese to Chinese, I really liked it.

Not to mention the company was great. I haven't laughed that hard in a while.

One of my favorite events of the night. Since Dan was a no show (ohhh oooh~ have to spend quality time with your girlfriend huh? we're not good enough for you. just kidding. ^_~) I was looking for a new target....And Ben just happened to have leaning over the pool. Nigaki stomped away and Ben heard before I was able to get close enough to push him in and afterwards he was all:
Ben: "You wouldn't really have pushed me in would you?"
Me: *smile smile*
Ben: "You scare me!!"

Well I got to hang out with Crystal after all. We went to a pie shop *sparkle sparkle fangirl* I had a Blackberry Tart that was more like a mini pie than a tart. Twas awesome.

I'm feeling much much less PMSy which is good...cause it makes me want to hit things. And I don't mean just hitting things for fun (which is fun). And now life is good again~! ya ya!

Oh and beware Dan. I'm determined to push you into Ben's pool. Come prepared.

I'm on this Utada Hikaru kick again...

I just like pop sounding songs again. Bouncy, Happy, makes all the emo people cry, Pop songs.

I'm a big cheese ball.

I need to get out of my house. I know almost all summers end up this way, but I haven't left since Sunday. It makes me feel damn apathetic so I added a little mini project. Polish all the silver in the house, and possibly any of the other metals. I dunno. Polishing stuff gives me a very satisfied feeling. I'm too much of an outdoorsie person that can't be outdoors.

I'm excited to hang out with everyone on Friday. That's always a lot of fun.
And I really need to call an old friend of mine...but I lost her number. Crystal tried to call me when I was driving downtown in the rain in traffic and slightly lost so I told her I'd call her back so I don't die. You know. I'd rather not die anytime soon.

The baby birdies are growing up wonderfully. I can definitely say they're sparrows now because they have all their feathers. They'll probably be leaving me sometime soon. I'll be sad to see them go, but happy for them too. I'm really rooting for them.

Beware of Ranting: Warning Warning Warning.

-_- ....I want my Vaio-chan back.

I'm going to be sending it to a friend with a happy little spot welder (cause I don't have one *pout*), because I'm NOT sending my precious back to the people at Sony. Sure, they make nice things but their repair SUCKS. They had internal screws missing!!!! SCREWS! THOSE ARE IMPORTANT!

Now, my reasoning on having Vaio-chan back. First, I love my little compy and am sad and frustrated that it's in such disrepair and there isn't anything I can do.

Second and the main reason for this rant. MY FAMILY ARE COMPY IDIOTS!!

Woke up this morning and got on to check my mail....Find at least 20 new spyware programs had installed while I was at work yesterday night. I tried to get rid of the big ones...but there are some pretty deeply imbedded and they're getting tricky. Manage to pull a restart everytime and reinstall in the process.

I mean, this thing is already riddled with instability problems. But this is seriously the worst. This'll probably spend me all morning.

Sorry. I just need to rage. It's been a bad morning and there's alot on my mind.

GAAARRR!!!

Nigaki's back~! yeah~!

Yesterday Dan, Afton, Nigaki, Benjy and I all sat around and watched "Hero". That friggin however many million budget film. I liked it. Having all the color representing certain things, and always the truth was in white.

My project is going well, though it's always interesting unearthing all these things from when I was younger. It's interesting, I'm a different person than what I was, but at the same time I'm exactly the same. I can see how my past has shaped who I am today, but I'm not the person that I was. But at the same time I am. I can only live now. Food for thought.

I'm thankful to that little girl that I was for being true to herself and true to what she believed at the time. Because of her I'm a stronger person. Hopefully I can continue that pattern for who I am in the future. True to myself and true to those that I care about. But I'm still a different person that who I was.

Ahh well. =) Ramblings.

The three little birdies are growing up stronger and stronger every day. They are seriously far too cute for their own good. I'm glad cause I'm rooting for them.

Sometimes I worry about the future...but the present sure as hell feels wonderful.

Nigaki's coming home =D yah yah~!

I decided my new summer project is redecorate my room. I'm going to add that boarder I wanted. Dark navy with silver stars. And then there's this cheap dresser that's just begging to be painted.

uuuuumm.....don't know what else to say. Oh! I broke down and got a deviant account. And now I don't know what to put in it. I put the Johnny in a dress picture up on it...buuuuut....

maybe I'll just put in doodles. That's mostly everything that I do. I could always scan in my tarot deck too.

Gaaah~~ *bounce bounce* The next Harry Potter movie is coming out! and it has the Mauraders. I hope it's made well...

I'm so friggin bored....I can't wait till Nigaki gets back and Dan and Ben get out of school. Thus the fun would start!

mm...other than that life is good.

Except that one of the birdie eggs didn't hatch...*sigh* But the other three are really really cute and seem to be growing up fine =)

*bounce bounce* ^_^ life is good

sooo it's early in the morning. My namesake is whining to go out even though I know she doesn't need to. ah well. I just let her out anyways.

This is really cute. Far too cute for it's own good.
^ ^ Love is boundless. Rar.

There is this wreath on my front door...and a bird had made a nest in it...we generally try and give mommy bird lots of privacy, but we've also been watching the eggs ourselves. Two of the eggs hatched yesterday. Was it ever adorable. *squeal* Little tiny beaks open wide and tiny tiny wings. Really really adorable. Really adorable.

^_^ Thus dawns a new day.

BWHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA

Thank you Nigaki =D You rock.

well...I have bad news.

Yuki, my pet rat, has passed on.

He was old, losing hair, and rather weak. He passed on sometime during dinner tonight.

Liz helped prepare a nice box for him...we left him near some cattails in the untamed grass behind the complex.

I was expecting it to come sometime this summer and planning on putting him near one of my other pets Valentine. It just came sooner than I expected.

I worry about Shu...

So it's finals week~

I have stuff to do but I'm very content to do it.

And I swear I'll get the comments thingy fixed sometime...it's just not a system I understand so I have to learn new things in the process. I'm learning enough new things at the moment so it's sort of slipped on my list of priorities to learn.

For some reason my friends up here are comparing me to Excel Saga's Hyatt. Weird disease, spacey, weird disease, generally kind and polite, weird disease, has the hair for it when it's down and curly, weird disease...

Perhaps I'll just randomly collapse once in a while to throw them for a loop. haha.

But no no. No collapsing. Or at least until finals are over.

Oh and the joke of the week~
Jason: I'm having a Cinco de Mayo party. Wanna come?
Me: When is it?
Jason: I'm going to hit you.
Me: AHH! I ment the TIME the TIIIMMMEEE!!!

my braaaaiiiiin~

Buddhist sutra translation would be alot more fun if there weren't hundreds of Indian languages, hundreds of Chinese languages, and hundreds of sutras.....and the author manages to name all of them.

.....my braaaaaiiiiinnnnnn!!

x_x ok. the comments form got friggin deleted....so no comments till I fix it.

till then =D

woot~! new layout up. much thanks to Liz for letting me use her illegal copy of Photoshop.

this is dedicated to someone. who? that's a secret.