I was talking to Nigaki today, she said she's going to be sending the SHOXX's issues to me Monday. They'll probably arrive before my birthday and I ended up thinking about if Miyavi or Ryuutarou actually visited me for my birthday, rather than just posters.

You know. Most fangirls daydream of unexpected marriage proposals. I daydream of getting my asskicked at Tekken and conversations about the Red Socks.

Information:

I've started decorating my walls. I already have a few personal pictures up, but nothing for just decoration.

My Miyavi section has "Spandex is not a right. It is a privilege...and Miyavi has earned it."

My favorite pair of slippers is falling apart. It makes me sad. They're so comfy and red...and the foam on the heel is half torn out just from me using them all the time.

I tried this chai green tea when I was visiting Albany and I've adored it and have been looking all over for it. The local grocery store started to carry it.

Currently I'm in the mood for Earl Grey.

The Margret Cho show is on Monday. I think everyone's excited about it. ^_^

I really really really need to make a new layout....though I do have a few backup layouts that have just been sitting around in my folders doing nothing. All my artistic inspiration left me yet again.

My birthday is in a week! Woot! Legalness for me! I'll be able to cook recipes that call for alcohol now!

Shu's been really jumpy. He scared of everything and likes hiding in my clothing. I think I'd probably be more worried that something happened if Yuki was acting the same way, but he's not. Yuki's so laid back. ^_^ He's just kinda like..."hm? I guess I'm on your shoulder now. *blinks and gets comfy*" Shu's all "Eeee! It's the world! O_O! So much stuff! Ahhh!"

I recieved word that I've been officially accepted to move campuses next semester. ^_^ I'll probably have to fill out paperwork for Liz's place so I have somewhere to sleep =p~ Mmm...cardboard boxes. =)

And lastly, I'm going to be visiting home next weekend. If anyone wants to give me anything, that'd be a great time. *sparkle*

Meme's are way too much fun. This one was too classic ^___^

Are you a God? by Demonac
Name:
God/Goddess type:	God of Confusion
Worshippers:	Monks (think Shaolin Kungfu)
They show devotion by:	Not Eating Pork
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Did you know that Martin Luther King Jr. wrote a speech against Vietnam?

In 1957 a sensitive American official overseas said that it seemed to him that our nation was on the wrong side of a world revolution. During the past ten years we have seen emerge a pattern of suppression which now has justified the presence of U.S. military "advisors" in Venezuela. This need to maintain social stability for our investments accounts for the counter-revolutionary action of American forces in Guatemala. It tells why American helicopters are being used against guerrillas in Colombia and why American napalm and green beret forces have already been active against rebels in Peru. It is with such activity in mind that the words of the late John F. Kennedy come back to haunt us. Five years ago he said, "Those who make peaceful revolution impossible will make violent revolution inevitable."

Increasingly, by choice or by accident, this is the role our nation has taken -- the role of those who make peaceful revolution impossible by refusing to give up the privileges and the pleasures that come from the immense profits of overseas investment.

I am convinced that if we are to get on the right side of the world revolution, we as a nation must undergo a radical revolution of values. We must rapidly begin the shift from a "thing-oriented" society to a "person-oriented" society. When machines and computers, profit motives and property rights are considered more important than people, the giant triplets of racism, materialism, and militarism are incapable of being conquered.

A true revolution of values will soon cause us to question the fairness and justice of many of our past and present policies. n the one hand we are called to play the good Samaritan on life's roadside; but that will be only an initial act. One day we must come to see that the whole Jericho road must be transformed so that men and women will not be constantly beaten and robbed as they make their journey on life's highway. True compassion is more than flinging a coin to a beggar; it is not haphazard and superficial. It comes to see that an edifice which produces beggars needs restructuring. A true revolution of values will soon look uneasily on the glaring contrast of poverty and wealth. With righteous indignation, it will look across the seas and see individual capitalists of the West investing huge sums of money in Asia, Africa and South America, only to take the profits out with no concern for the social betterment of the countries, and say: "This is not just." It will look at our alliance with the landed gentry of Latin America and say: "This is not just." The Western arrogance of feeling that it has everything to teach others and nothing to learn from them is not just. A true revolution of values will lay hands on the world order and say of war: "This way of settling differences is not just." This business of burning human beings with napalm, of filling our nation's homes with orphans and widows, of injecting poisonous drugs of hate into veins of people normally humane, of sending men home from dark and bloody battlefields physically handicapped and psychologically deranged, cannot be reconciled with wisdom, justice and love. A nation that continues year after year to spend more money on military defense than on programs of social uplift is approaching spiritual death....

...This kind of positive revolution of values is our best defense against communism. War is not the answer. Communism will never be defeated by the use of atomic bombs or nuclear weapons. Let us not join those who shout war and through their misguided passions urge the United States to relinquish its participation in the United Nations. These are days which demand wise restraint and calm reasonableness. We must not call everyone a Communist or an appeaser who advocates the seating of Red China in the United Nations and who recognizes that hate and hysteria are not the final answers to the problem of these turbulent days. We must not engage in a negative anti-communism, but rather in a positive thrust for democracy, realizing that our greatest defense against communism is to take offensive action in behalf of justice. We must with positive action seek to remove thosse conditions of poverty, insecurity and injustice which are the fertile soil in which the seed of communism grows and develops.

I think my favorite part is this:

Here is the true meaning and value of compassion and nonviolence when it helps us to see the enemy's point of view, to hear his questions, to know his assessment of ourselves. For from his view we may indeed see the basic weaknesses of our own condition, and if we are mature, we may learn and grow and profit from the wisdom of the brothers who are called the opposition.

I got this from Liz. Not for the faint of heart:

"In their heart. When the light in their soul goes out. If their bodies live on, they grow up mangled and mangle those closest to them. And it all takes shape down there. In the dark new universe of a young child's mind. Mark Phelps escaped."

*bounce bounce* Today was so beautifully overcast. And I got an extention on my paper because friggin none of the local stations show Martha Stewart Living. How odd is that?!

Though something mildly odd happened in class. I was talking to Heidi this morning because she really pissed off at the 700 Club. They had ran a small program on this book that said that gay groups use brainwashing to get members or something like that. One of the hosts was all "they use straight actors to play gay men so that you think they're just like us. But they aren't. I've seen gay protests and some really crazy evil stuff happens at those." Then in class we were talking about how television influences people and I told the class that story and in introducing Heidi into it I told them she was a Fag Hag. Everyone got all offended like I said something offensive. Fag Hag. Those girls that hang out with gay men all the time so they can talk fashion etc. (of course not all gay men are into fashion). They were all offended. It really made me a little confused. I wonder if they think I'm some homophobe now. *laughs* ah well. not that their opinions'll really do much to me anyways.

Ahh...if I died today, I'd die content I think. I'm definitely feeling content. It was a beautiful day. Beautiful, peaceful, windy, calm, and even a little warm. The trees have been turning colors. The wind smelled wonderful. I feel safe and cared about. Not to mention it's my favorite season.

I need to find a good place to feed birds. I got all this bird seed to toss when I want to feed some, but I can't do it near the pond cause we're not allowed to feed the ducks. I'm gonna search around campus for a good spot.

Oh! I know what I was going to rant about. I haven't watched much Naruto since I had that little marathon (I watched 1-45 in about a week and a half). I managed to finish the download of episode 46 yesterday. I adore Team 8 even more. They left me at such a friggin cliff hanger! Arg! noooo!

Either way, it's put me back on the Naruto kick. Team 8 layout...hmm... I'm definitely a Team 8 admirer.

My family is having a family reunion back home. Makes me sad that I can't participate in it...my family is all really cool and rarely gets togther. *sigh* Everyone is just great. It makes me really proud of my heritage. I wish I could see them all.

But I suppose that's life.
I guess I get to wait for the next wedding, then everyone will flock together again. *laughs* I think this is one of the first family reunions that's ONLY a family reunion. Most of the time it's just weddings and funerals. And since the oldest of the cousins just got to marriage age and did get married, it'll be less funerals reunions and more weddings. Which is always nice. Not that my family doesn't understand how to be sad about death, but also celebrate that life too.

I'm rambling.

In other news, I discovered a great source for green tea from now on. There's an organic store Heidi, Tomo, and I discovered that has lots of good tea. I got a couple (well...more than a couple) boxes of different things. Some good, some not so good but still not bad because "hell! it's tea!" Yesterday I just decided to try the green tea I got from there. The tea was actually GREEN! As in the color green! I was so excited about that that I called Tomo over from her video game to show her. It was already starting to ferment and turn brown so I was all like "LOOK! LOOK! IT'S GREEN!!!" Definitely happy me. Good source of fresh green tea discovered.

Oh, and I really need to make a new layout. I'm still not sure if I should do Miyavi again. ahh *swoon* Miyavi. You're so charismatic and talented. *fangirling*

Alright: Beware of much series ranting.

After talking to Nigaki about Miyavi's mullet (and how it's PERFECTLY ACCEPTABLE!! *coughfangirling*) we discussed Saiyuki mullets. Demo Goku and his Ulti-mullet. =D

So now I'm on this Saiyuki kick. Though no help to the US release of the anime. Tomo gets irritated when I start saying how I just don't like it, but I don't! It was so poorly done! The manga was a pretty and well made and the anime was just....my god. It's like they had a shoe string budget but were NOT creative about using it. Original Weiss Kreuz was better!!! And that's SAD! The slaughtered youkai just disapate! It's not even a pretty sort of disapate! It's like Random Villian: "*papercut* AHH!! *disolves*" The fight scenes are the ones that REALLY get me. It's like "*action lines!* I'm pretending like I'm actually doing some horrible fighting move but really all I'm doing is posing in action lines!" Random Villian: "AHHH! *disolve*" Sanzou isn't even as bitchy. No angst either. I don't think I even want to imagine that animated angst. It's like "*action lines!* I'm depressed!!" Random Villian: "AHHH! *disolves*"

I just can't get over the quality of the manga. Gojyo just swings...whatever that weapon's name is, so beautifully. You can follow Goku's movements better drawn out than animated. That's SAD! It's just TOO DAMN CHEAP! IT'S A GOOD SERIES! SPEND SOME MONEY AND MAKE A GOOD ANIME! GAAARRRR!!

*breathes* ....well at least I still have my manga ^_^ *huggles it*

I remember when I had such hopes for the anime too. Cause I managed to download both openings, but I hadn't gotten any of the actual episodes yet. The openings are satisfying. Just seeing the series makes me want to go "you guys are the ones that made that animated Lord of the Rings, didn't you."

ARG! It's so irritating! *rant rant*

Alright. All done.

I got voted best introduction in English. I didn't get a prize though. Demmit. I wanted whatever my professor has lying around. (generally he gives out a pen or a highlight or something like that). Ah well.

I need to go shopping for ratty food. I'm starting to run out. Sure, I could probably feed them whatever is hanging around, but I don't want them to get used to people food. Yuki's being such a sweetheart. He just likes to lounge around on my shoulder. Doesn't really wander around that much, and if he does he always returns to cuddle on my shoulders or in my arms, or being the pervert he is, in my shirt. Shu's pretty hyper. He doesn't really like hanging around me all that much. A whole lot less affectionate than Yuki. Unfortunetly he's taken up his father's habit of nibbling on my fingers when he doesn't like something. Ahh well. *ratty rant over*

I've been complaining that I haven't made anything graphically great in the past couple months. Everything has been downhill since Amethyst Rememberence II. Sure, the Pura layout was very fun and deep for me. But graphically? It sucks.

Well. I'm decently proud of this. I've been playing around with a Miyavi looking vampire-ish picture for the new layout. I'm still not sure how to make this into a layout. But for the moment you can get an 800x600 wallpaper of what I have so far. I'm still playing around with it layout wise. ^__^ I'm just happy I'm making nice things again. Hopefully this trend will continue. I'm already doing a request for Tomo cause she gave me a useable Human-Inuyasha picture that I get to play around with to make a wallpaper for her.

If I had a scanner, I'd already be writing the Anime-tachi doujinshi. We love you Ben. Yes we do.

I really want to see Dan's Little Adventure-Director's Cut Edition. But Nigaki is sick and facing midterms. I'd rather see her make it out of that in one piece. So get better Nigaki!

Oh, and my paper is comparing Queer Eye for the Straight Guy and Martha Stewart Living. ^_^ *does the little 'rock on' horn symbol things with my hands*

I always manage to write something about CBS Sunday Morning. ^_^ The Yodelling Elk had to be the most interesting thing ever. Makes me wonder more about the mating habits of humans. Haha

I'm still so torn about the new layout for next month. Mint, Team 8, or.....perhaps a Vampirish Miyavi for Halloween =D

Since Tomo's gone for the weekend, she left me her laptop. Currently the CD-rom on Vaio-chan is pretty busted. I can't figure out how to take the cover off of Vaio-chan either so I have no idea how to replace it. (I do have a replacement CD-rom/burner/DVD-rom/thingy). So anything I have on CDs I can't access. With Tomo's laptop here I watched lots of Jrock videos and even rewatched Gravitation. Ryuuichi so rocks =D Plus the OVA's are just classic XD *much amusement* Kana too. I've completely accepted Kana's music as music. yeah yeah. I know some people think her voice is about as pleasant as that Elk yodelling, but I like it. It's really strong and interesting. Besides. Kyo can yodel, why can't Kana.

I've actually started to watch a small amount of TV. A show other than Sunday Morning. =D Queer Eye for the Straight Guy. Heidi got me into it. She adores her gay men so much. Wow. That show is great. They're so snarky and I get to learn uber easy yet classy cooking. It has to be easy. It's like a snarkier and more broad "How to Boil Water" + "E! Emergency". I love the part at the end where they sit around with their martini's and critique the guy. Much fun. =D

Ohh!! Now I know what to write my next English report on! I have to write a comparison of two TV shows.....and I don't watch TV. So I figured I'd be pretty screwed. But I guess I can do it on Queer Eye for the Straight Guy and....I don't know. Is Changing Spaces a makeover show, right? Well...a house makeover show. What's a good Makeover type show? I don't watch TV so I don't know!! Ahh! *screwed for the next paper*

[Edit @ 3:44pm]

Be proud. I have made my first wallpaper in months. Months!
I don't mean to neglet Stuff. so much. I just haven't been very wallpaper inspired. I haven't really been artistically inspired at all the last couple months. I barely doodle anymore. Blah. I only started doodling again just recently. Ah well. Here's a really crappy wallpaper for you all. Oh and look who it's of. Everyone's favorite uh....girl? I don't really quite know what she is with those ears. Either way Mint is cuter than pie. Or wait...sweeter than pie? Yes. That makes more sense. Sweeter than pie.

Well Tomo's left me all alone for the weekend *cry*
Haha just kidding. =D I hope she's having fun back home.

*yawns and strentches*

The sun was really really bright today...but I felt it was alot less intense. Even though it was a really clear day I didn't feel as toasted, which is always nice. It means it'll be at an angle soon where I won't have to worry at all, which'll be nice. I'm past tired of getting weird looks. If I'm going to get weird looks at least have it be for blue hair or something.

When I get results like this...I'm wondering if this is a good thing or not:

this is my way to live

What about yours?
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Oh. I got my drivers liscence renued cause it was about to expire. =D Haha. I'll be legal soon. As in truely legal and not that 18-adult but not really sort of thing.....then again I'll be ansy for the next couple years about car insurance etc.

*victory dance*
I got back my paper from English today. Friggin A+! Hell yeah! *victory dances s'more*

He thought it was clear and intellegence...as well as funny. He wants to keep it as an example of a well written paper.

*more victory dancing*

Did I mention this is an Honors English class? *still friggin victory dancing*

I stuck the grading sheet on the refridgerator XD

Chou happii!! *dance dance*

Before that class I ended up having lunch with this guy that works on at the coffee house on campus. I ended up ranting about Miyavi. *laughs* Poor kid, having to deal with my "Miyavi's just so amazing! *sparkle sparkle*" I think he liked having the company though.

*still so friggin proud of myself for that paper*

Once again. Kudos to Mrs. Sullivan. I can't write BS any longer because it annoys the hell out of me. Repeating the exact same thing over and over again and just adding in words out of no-where........well at least on anything formal =D! *dance dance* So I'm screwed for anything that's like "No less than 3-billion words", but if I have to write anything mildly intellegent? *holds up fist* I AM PREPARED!! *echoes*

Ahhahaha *bounce bounce*

Though Mom? Don't print this out and give this to Mrs Sullivan like last time. She'd probably scold me on all the fragmented sentances and slang even though it's meant to be uber informal.

I really should be off at the martial arts club/class/thing. But Tomo's making dinner and I want to celebrate my getting an A+ from a difficult professor. *cheers!*

The Anime Opening Archive would probably be my favorite site ever if ANY OF THE CLIPS ACTUALLY WORKED! They list the friggin rarest series ever. If it ran on Japanese TV recently they have it. But none of the links work!! *cry*

At least it's giving me the names of the songs so I can download em on WinMX. *bounce bounce* I like happy music. Cute OPs and EDs are usually very happy music. *bounce bounce*

They don't have PitaTen though. so sad. I really like the style of that series. It's all in either soft pastels or dark and light greys. Everything is colored really softly. Not to mention the angel and demon of the series both wear uber cute Lolita dresses. It's not exactly my favorite though. I just thought the coloring was really cute. Broccolli comes up with the cutest stuff.

*dance dance* I'm drowning in hyper cuteness! What a way to go! =D

I'm going to make a list. Because lists help me know I exist.

I like (in no particular order): Tea, Miyavi, Plastic Tree, Warm rain, Blankets and other such warm fuzzy things, Good depressing but happy ending type stories, Being heard, Being understood, Being loved, Knowing that I did something good, Windy days, Things that smell interesting, Cute chopsticks, Listening to birds while I sleep, Listening to rain while I sleep, Listening to pretty much anything when I sleep, Sleeping, Wandering on a cloudy day, Spacing out, The feeling of grass between my fingers, Running around in the rain, Playing in snow, Playing in leaves, Really good food...

More will come with time.

O___O; I just called my mom and found out she printed out the section of my previous entry where I talked about Mrs. Sullivan and gave it to my little sister who gave it to her. She told me she cried.....

......o__o wow. I made my old teacher cry. A very cool teacher that probably should get praise more often than just a random blog entry, but none the less.

;_; omg. now I'm feeling all emotional. I made her happy. I really made her happy. I'm so glad I did something good. *all faclempt* I made Mrs. Sullivan happy.

(time passes because of phone call)

I just got a job. Not a huge one, but I'm going to be babysitting the son of two professors on campus. I was in English class and there was another professor talking to mine before class started and she was all "I'm going to need a babysitter" and he was like "anyone here want to babysit?" and I said sure and gave some contact info and she just called and so now I have a tiny job. ^_^ yeah! *will spend the money on the SHOXX Nigaki's sending me* And it's just one boy. I'd probably be a little more worried if it was like 7 kids all at once, but one is doable. Just tiring because it means I have to play with him because he won't have anyone else to play with. If it's two, then it's just damage control. three is chaos control and possibly playing with the third wheel depending on the dynamics. I haven't had to deal with four or more before by myself so I don't know how that would work.

>_< Oh. and I'm annoyed at the lack of Galaxy Angel stuff. The show is quite cute, not to mention very guilt free. Don't forget that Mint is just the most adorable thing ever. Maybe I should make the new layout of her (if I manage to even FIND any pictures of Mint) rather than Team 8. Though Team 8 is just as hard to find but at least I can screen cap that. I only have VHS raw tapes off of TV of Galaxy Angel. Too cute! Her little ears bounce up and down when she's happy. Isn't that just the cutest thing ever? *dies of cuteness*

Tarzan!


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Awww how sweet ^_^

Nigaki got SHOXX's for me. Lots and lots of Miyavi and Pura Tree. Which makes me quite gleeful. *spins* my two favorite J-rockers. We then discussed Miyavi's tattoos. *nod nods* He has the only attractive tattoos in existance I think. Or at least that I've found.

I visited Liz with Tomo and Sean. Sean was very kind enough to drive. I bought some cute chopsticks. Got rained on. Wandered around campus. Watched Haibane Renmei. Drove back.

Oh, and thank you all for all the comments. ^_^ They make me feel very loved.

I just wanted to say that I adore my high school senior english teacher, Mrs. Sullivan. My english professor is a real stickler for not being overly wordy. He'd rather see a half a page of intellegence than 3 pages of wordy nothingness. Mrs. Sullivan taught me these lessons senior year. Thank you Mrs Sullivan for being so damn anal retentive. Because of you I can get a good grade in this class....and fail all the ones where teachers like BS.

I like my pretty blue stapler. I feel like that one guy from Office Space, completely obsessed with his stapler. *pets pretty blue stapler* You're such a cute stapler.

I have a test in Biology tomorrow. The uber easy Bio. I'm not even bother studying because it's on the parts of a cell. It's like "What is the function of a Ribosome?" *smacks forehead* I know it's probably tough material for other people, but for me who in my childhood read a human body book till it fell apart, it's way too easy.

I'm thinking of making a new wallpaper. I haven't made wallpaper in such a long time. I wish there was better Naruto pictures to use. The best art out there are fanart and I can't use that. Ah well *screencaps away* If anyone provides me with a good image I'll make some wallpaper. I need a good image though. A good image is very very important.

I just found out I'm 9 credits away from a history minor.

...I wanted to get a minor in something or another. I think my art study was too spread to really get a minor in it. Hmm...2 classes away from a history minor. That's a pretty good idea. Besides. I'd love to take a few more history classes. It's too bad I didn't take any more classes from my favorite professor before he got the boot. I'm probably going to be taking more asian history classes anyways. Hmm Hmm Hmm.

Sometimes it really is a bad thing that my interests are spread so far. Not for life in general, but for studies and carreer choices? yes, a bad thing.

Oh. And I found out it was Team 8. And I also found out there is a very distinct lack of anything Team 8. So pretty much I get to screen cap everything myself. One major problem with shounen series. 90% of good pictures are of the major characters and nothing else. They just don't make pictures of secondary characters. Just try and find a decent picture of Touya Akira's mother. Nope. Doesn't exist.

My life is rated R.
What is your life rated?

Hahaha =D I can say Damn but not F*#@. Then again, most of the results I've seen for this quiz were NC-17. Ahh I'm so corruptable.

The hurrican was so disappointing. The eye was supposed to head right for me....and it friggin drizzled.

That's not to say that the coastal people aren't shaking their fist at me for not getting a tree through my window or something.

I have such a storm addiction. They're just very comforting. But no storm for me. *pout*

Oh! And does ANYONE know what number the team with Hinata (The only member of the Naruto fanclub XD), Shino (the bug guy), and Kiba (with Akamaru the ever adorable Ninja Puppy TM)? I know Team 7 is Sasuke, Sakura, and Naruto, but what about them? I think they're a really cool team. Anyone know the number? Anyone? I'm going to try and find some pictures of them and use them for the next layout.

And Dan? You should still cosplay Lee =D We'll tackle you down and manage to draw or tape or do something to get you some friggin huge eyebrows. You could even be all "I am martial arts mastah! *sparkle*" If you do I'll cosplay Shino! I might even manage to find some bugs to hide in my sleeves or something....on second thought that might get a little messy. Skip the bugs.

I must say this hurricane business is very exciting. Then again I'm someone that feels the most calm during fierce storms. *laughs* Definitely love my storms.

Serves all those "it's such a nice sunny day out today" people right. fu fu fu fu.

I wonder if classes will be canceled ^_^ la la la. I hope so because I'm not going to be getting many snow days. It's going to be a really mixed winter this year. Not like last year. At least the heating bills won't be as bad.

Mmmm...this hurricane is so exciting. ^__^ *bounce bounce*

I like quizzes. Quizzes are nice.

WOW you're the bigest loser I'v ever seen! Don't
worry we'll get along just fine!!!


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Your Lyrics

You're too important for anyone
There's something wrong with everything you see
But I, I know who you really are
You're the one who cries when you're alone

Where will you go
With no one left to save you from yourself
You can't escape
you don't want to escape

However did you manage to push away
from every living thing you've come across
so afraid that anyone will hate you
you pretend you hate them first

Where will you go
With no one left to save you from yourself
You can't escape the truth
I realize you're afraid
But you can't refrain from everything
You cant' escape
You can't escape

I'm so sick of speaking words that no one
understands
is it clear enough that you can't live your whole
life all alone
I can hear you when you whisper, but you can't even
hear me screaming

And where will you go
With no one left to save you from yourself
You can't escape the truth
I realize your're afraid
But you can't reject the whole world
You can't escape
You won't escape
You can't escape
You don't want to escape


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I hate you sun. >_< Burn and Die! ....wait. it already is. *sigh* ._.;

I hate you sun! >_< arg arg arg! *growl growl growl bitch bitch bitch whine whine whine*

;_; ow. Big meany.

...and if I hear one more thing about how nice it is outside I'm going to cry.

Arg! I hate this! it makes me too damn unstable too. I hate being unstable because unstable=bad. Functioning=good.

....I hate you sun. Why do you have to be responcible for my food and other people's happiness so I could really REALLY hate you.

...I'm just going to curl up somewhere and watch Naruto or play a video game or something.

I hate you sun. I hate you damn blood. You suck. Stupid enzymes. Why do you have to suck so much. My blood needs to fucking go to hell. I hate you sun.

*breathes* alright. I feel better now.

Kyaaaa ^__^

Naruto is a very cute series. Sure, it's fighting up the wazzo, but I really like the people in it. Even the ever hot-tempered and one would expect stereotypical Naruto, has some true to life quirks. I really feel for the guy. Sasuke too. Sakura too though she's can get a little irritating during battle cause she's got the whole scream insert person's name here (Sasuke's most of the time) instead of doing anything truely productive. Inner Sakura makes me laugh ^_^ I'm glad she grows up at least.

I like this series. *bounce bounce* I also absolutely adore the first ending theme. Don't know why, it just really clicks. Then again animetachi at home know this already. The second opening is cute too in it's "we're so punk. rar XD". Damn catchy.

O__o;;; wtf. I just realized I'm becoming more and more a fan of Jump series. I like Hikago, Teni Puri, and now Naruto?! >_< I'm a shoujo fan!! *cry*
Well I'm not a huge fan of Teni Puri. I think it's cute and also I've gotten so much friggin info on tennis in the past from my parents that I get to laugh at some of the specialty moves. (ex: "wow...that could be hit with a volley" "I'm not quite sure how one would deal with that in the wind" "they should play on clay and THEN see how good they are *evil chortle*") Then again, me with a tennis racket is like me miniture golfing. ("Hey! look! I hit it in the water again! =D" ">_< Erin...." "Time to go fetch it out! =D la la la" ">_>;; *writes down stroke of six for the next 12 holes early to save time*")

And then Hikago is damn sweet between Hikaru and Touya. ^_^ Hahahaha. Definitely not normal rivals. It's so sad about Sai though. ;_; Poor Sai. Just when Hikaru finally starts growing up and stops acting like such an ass...*sigh* Poor Sai.

....damn. I'm a Jump fan.

I've started back up on a tradition Liz taught me. Watch Sunday Morning.

Dear Kami! It's so nice getting intellegent news. Not to mention they enjoy a little whit once in a while. It even has an attention span greater than a four year old hyped up on pixy stix. They don't need to show blood. Don't need to spout about "The dangers of rusty shopping carts can pose on YOUR family"! Instead they speak of this season's art exhibits. Ahhh how I missed it. A news program that actually sat back and THOUGHT! Not to mention I remember at the start of this damn war they actually had the power to say things like "maybe this isn't such a good idea". I think I'm going to add Face the Nation to my watching list too. *grins* Our defence secretary gets critized. And they run over time accidentally. *GRIN*

Sunday Morning SOOO rocks. *laughs* I think I can put up with the fact every other commercial is for an investment firm or hearing aids. This is really horrible to say...but I hope that it doesn't die with the population. As older Americans go, will their shows go with them? Maybe more peacenicks like me will continue watching it. I hope so.

I hope I'm not growing pretentious though. That'd be bad.

It's a little early and I was going to wait a couple hours to say this....but I want to watch SNL.

But anyways:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIYAVI!

=D I am such a fangirl. But! He's just so talented and creative and charismatic. Who can't just adore him!

Nigaki just sent me his new single actually. Really fun. It's like....just slightly counter-beat. Which I think is just great. I can't quite distinguish the words (but then again this is Miyavi). But it sounds like "Tori nai. Tori nai."?

Nigaki also directed me to The Miyavi Fanbook Project. I really want to participate in it. I'm not quite sure what to send though. It'd be good practice if I sent a letter in Japanese...but I don't trust my Japanese enough quite yet. Maybe I should try and give it a go anyways.

*swoon swoon* Miyavi's too talented and creative for his own good. No wonder he goes by "Ore-sama". *laughs*

Ah well. SNL time. =D *waits to see this week's politics*

Alright. Something is definitely wrong and I don't know what.

I also feel really damn crazy for thinking that.

Soooo...I wasn't able to get a textbook I needed from home so *waves goodbye to another $70 on books*

Ah well. At least I like the class. That math one is alot of fun. Lots of fun logical puzzles. I adore a good logic puzzle. I especially love a math class that doesn't require a calculator. *grins* completely dependant on brainfarts.

I hope I'm able to contact people by phone tomorrow. I really want to make this tradition a worthwhile one.

Also, I'm thinking of learning Arabic, does anyone know any good Arabic shows I can download? Music too.

Arg. I'm feeling a little ansy. Things have been too quiet and predictable. I should really appreciate this calm but....it's like the air is different. It's a little too predictable for my tastes. I'm so used to have ten billion things going on. It's like....it's almost as if there isn't any wind. That's it. It's calm because there's no wind. But it's making me tense that there's no wind. It's just not something I'm used to.

In other news. Most of my classes are boring, which is probably a good thing because it gives me an insentive to work because there isn't like there's something better to work on. Though my english and math classes are both really fun. But not so intense that I have to really really focus.

I enjoy fantasizing about knocking myself out during my Bio classes though. Dear kami, I know average animal cell membranes are bilipid layers and hydophobic means it doesn't like water. Let's get to something interesting like the nitty gritty of DNA replication and protein formation. How blood is created. What REALLY goes on when one makes urine. Something COMPLICATED THAT TAKES THOUGHT! *sigh* Why are Gen Ed's are so....easy.

*laughs!* I think I just figured it out! Why I'm feeling so ansy about this calm. I feel the best under challenge. I feel the best when I have something to think and chew on. When things get dull I get dull. Sword like, ya know?

Maybe I should join some really time consuming club. I don't think the theater department this time though. That just sucked up my soul....but at least it was for a good cause. I don't think I could put in that much work if the performance didn't have some social value.

Ahhh well. Ranting over! The campus is having free miniture golf tonight so woo! *gets to hit stuff with a stick*

...I still feel like something isn't right though. Arg. I'll have to think more about it. Something just doesn't quite smell right.

I should make an obligitory 9/11 post. Maybe if I talk more, more people will listen.....eh probably not.

I'm going to make an apology ahead of time to those that lost loved ones from 9/11.
I should probably say my story on that day:

I woke up. Made myself some breakfast and was deciding between watching some anime or watch the news. My little inner voice said "WATCH THE NEWS" but I was still thinking "...mm...but I could practice my japanese more" "Be a good citizen AND WATCH THE NEWS" "hai hai"
Turned on the TV. Saw the first building in flames. Sat in amazement. Thanked my inner voice. Saw the second one get hit live. Saw both collapse live. Heard rumors of a place crashing somewhere outside of my city. Now at this point I barely had any friends at college. I had people I hung out with but at that point I wasn't really close enough to call a friend. So if that plane crash where I was most fearing, I'd be alone. Completely, Total, and Utterly alone. I would have lost every single person I loved...every single one. I think I might have had one left because she was in Chicago at the time. But she wasn't going through my head. (sorry Crystal!) Tried calling home. Was always disconnected. Tried continuously. Always got this AT&T error message. Spent a while pondering inside my head if I lost anyone. If I lost everyone. I finally managed to get on the phone with one of my former mentors and she told me that the plane hit far away from them. Cried in relief. But it was still in my head what I felt if I lost everyone.

I had a message that I posted as an away message the day after.
"yesterday taught me that life is more valuable than I thought. I felt the fear that I could have lost some of my loved ones... What it would feel like if they were not there anymore. I'm sure others felt that way yesterday, and will feel that way in the days to come... Value your own life, and value the lives of others. For there will probably be someone who will miss them when they're gone..."

That sense of loss. I know some are going through it even as I type this. They've had to bear that sense of loss.

But this is universal.

If people were truely concerned about the impact of this, why aren't they doing things to help those who have lost in other things? Why are they making it worse with this war? Why? Two wrongs don't make a right. Yes, I understand that complete passificism isn't the best of ideas. But at the same time, damn it! GRR!!! What the fuck! I don't want to hear another friggin "American" who doesn't know a single person who actually died in 9/11 spout shit to me about right and wrong and vengence. Want to hear vengence? Starvation. Perpetual chaos. Paranoia. Loss day after day. Minute after minute. While America sits and watches sitcoms.

Then again. I'm probably no better. I've been very blessed.

But this still goes to people who have not actually lost someone. Damn it people. THINK! THINK! WHY!

....shit. class. *runs*

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