I'm going to get a new layout up soon. I started on one and just didn't like it. =/ I dunno. I need a good picture to use. or maybe I won't use a picture at all. Something super simple yet elegant? gah. weird. I have to play around with stuff. Really simple. yes.

Which sad j-rock song are you?
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o_o; *nervous laugh* I like Plastic Tree. ^_^;

I'm craving icecream even though it's cold out. >_>;; maybe I have some soup afterwards to neutralized the cold ^_^

I saw the PV's for both "Pop is Dead" and "Shindemo Boogiewoogie" by Miyavi. ^_^ Very very different from each other considering they're both from the same artist and released in a relatively close period of time. My only words about Pop is Dead is it brings an interest take on being your own band in the studio. Also I have to say "The colors duke! the colors!"
Shindemo Boogiewoogie is definetly an interesting video. Miyavi looks like he's having alot of fun. Also it's very hard to pull off cheap Vegas sex hotel and still look completely killer. Miyabi in a red sequenced jumpsuit plus white feather boa. Oh yes. Miyavi you are amazing.

I read an Anti-Avril article today. I thought I might rant a little bit.

I don't know a whole lot about the recent pop scene, mostly out of avoidance. Everything has felt the same though. But I think it's a similar thing as people who keep watching Bond movies. Not that Bond isn't fun and all, but c'mon it's exactly the same. Bad guys get killed, Bond gets the girl, insert explosions here. People feel comfortable knowing it's the same. It's a comfort to feel like they know something. It doesn't jar them or shake them and it makes people feel safe. I don't think that's such a horrible thing.

I guess Avril is nice in her own way. I don't really know enough to really say anything. But she is pop. That's at least one thing I know. From the very little I've heard she's not rock, she's pop. But that isn't such a bad thing when it makes people feel comfortable. She could possibly be a stepping stone to something a little bit more true to the punk genre. Let people get comfortable with the idea. Let tides shift.

One thing that annoys me about the Anti-Avril movement though is they start spouting things like talentless, produced, fake, etc. Well I guess I have enough faith in people that they'll feel that about her if it's true. And if it is she'll just eventually fade into the background. If it's not then it's possible she'll stay around longer than that. I guess it's the sort of thing that Dave Matthews Band didn't make however many albums they have and are still alive and kicking in the industry without any talent. Madonna wouldn't be around if she wasn't creative. The mainstream music industry is a difficult place to be in long term. If she manages to stay around good for her. She has skill and enough tact and creativity to not die musically. But if she is the talentless bimbo that the anti's are spouting then she'll fade. So there's no reason to get all huffy. =/

Ok. rant done. ^_^

Tomo is all better now ^__^ so life goes back to it's usual cycleness, though things are going to start to get a little different for me being stage manager for Laramie Project. LM is going to be alot of work but I think it will be really good for me. Tiring but good for me.

Oh! I managed to unlock Candy last night!! All the DDR has paid off! (to anyone who doesn't know in order to unlock Candy you have to pass 200 consecutive songs) Yeah yeah!

I'm realizing Katsu is coming sooner and sooner. which is probably a good thing so it won't conflict with LM. I'd be so upset if I wouldn't be able to go to Katsu ;_;

You are pink. You are in limbo. Not pure and manipulated like white, not impure and noble like red. You are unsure of your real identity, but whatever you chose it to be, you can be it. That is your power. You change everyone you touch, and everyone remembers you. In literature, pink represents the place between heaven and hell. You are the one we will never forget.
What inner color are you?
Quiz by Shirono

o_o wow.
^_^

< K accent > Big News!! < /K accent >

Tomo's feeling better. her white blood cell count is down and she feels less achey. Meanwhile Liz, Brian, and I are all feeling very tired and slightly achey ourselves. *stretches and yawns* I'm so prepared to just curl up and take a nap

I'm worried though. alot of my friends are having problems in romance. it worries me. some are from other people. some are angry at me for being...well stupid. *stares at the floor* everyone's worrying me. I don't really know what I should do. *sigh* well at least for once I don't have to worry about dealing with brian and tomo angsting. @_@ gah! I'm so confused!! *curls up and ponders shutting her self in her room for a day or two* What do you say to someone that's interested but you're not. and then what do you say to someone that's not interested but you are. and then there's 'we're interested but it wouldn't work out' *smacks head a few times* Romance sucks! That's it! I'm becoming a nun or something. I should just continue following my 'stay single so you can deal with everyone else's romance messes' motto. yes. sounds like a good plan. No one like me or I'll dump you! so there. O_O

Ignore all that. I'm just ranting. *sigh* u_u;;

Oh! in other news. I was recruited to be assistant stage manager for the school's play this semester. ^_^ But the stage manager backed out and I was offered the job. So now I'm stage manager!! yeah! I'm excited and it's going to be alot of hard work, but I'm determined! *cheers!* I hope I can handle the responsibility ^ ^;; It still sounds like fun ^__^ *excited excited*

Oh. Seymore in FFX sucks! He keeps killing me! ;_;

*laughs* like clockwork. it's exactly like clockwork. The days I'm happy the world falls apart.

Tomo caught some sort of throat infection. She's had some trouble breathing, moving around, slightly feverish, and she's in some pain too. So I stayed home today to take care of her and Brian. Brian's been hanging around here more and more. I don't really mind it though, he's a good friend. But both of them went to the hospital late last night (aka 1am) because Tomo was getting pretty bad. They got back around 9 this morning or so. Both of them are now asleep and I'm pretty sure I'm going to play mother today.

I have a feeling things are going to be alright though. So I'm not too worried. Still, Tomo's not in the best shape. And Brian's just exhasted. I wonder if I can get an excuse from some of my classes. I have to head over to campus sometime today anyways. =p blahness.

Nothing but a quiz post. yup. I'm part of the annoying blog club.

You are the not so frequently used question: "Are you sodmy?"
You're always looking for that certain person; not just any person, but someone who happens to -be- sodmy.
Though you are more or less unintellegible, everyone will hear you loud and clear when you blurt out, "OH, F*CK ME!"
You were brought to life by New Sodmy no Kamijo to prove to us all, yes, the new sodmy is indeed better than the old sodmy.
Which Engrish Hilarity Are You? Test made by: Docudrama.

*laughs* Engrish is wonderful.

I thought this was a cute idea from Adam-kun.

--(pick a band and answer only using that band's lyrics..)--
Plastic Tree

.01 are you male or female?
"although nothing has changed
I become afraid, and look down"

.02 describe yourself?
"Because I, who know nothing, will one day sleep forever,
In a dream unreachable, I am drowning"

.03 how do some people feel about you?:
"Please tell me Where is this magical happiness?"

.04 how do you feel about yourself?:
"The sky was clear and sunny, so they've all gone away.
I was selfish, so I was left behind
Completely empty
Deep in my ear the screw goes on turning,
And it's starting to hurt."

.05 describe your girlfriend/boyfriend/interest:
"With the crayon map you drew, I searched for your house
But points are missing and the relative ratio is insane"

.06 where would you rather be?:
"I want to waver in a dream,
One where I'll sink so deep that nobody can reach me"

.07 describe where you live?:
"( 3:10AM)
In this dream from which I cannot awake, before long I'm falling
I feel dizzy - I can't see, but still I go with you
The light of the dimmed moon
The grass murmuring"

.08 describe how you live:
"Though it seemed like I wanted to fall down into it all. look, before the door, I'm smiling"

.09 describe how you love:
"the dust-covered slide projector splutters a noise
ah~
that same scene which everybody loves
will repeat
.....which everybody loves
.....everybody loves
hahahahahaha"

.10 share a few words of wisdom:
"Because when exposed to time, sadness will all flow away"

Bwhahaha XD

Which Ringwraith are You?
By Lisa

I must agree that "Like, Frodo! My homie hobbit! Sauron wants his bling-bling back!" is very amusing.

I have nothing else to say. o_o;

o__O wow. it's been a long time since I posted here. But I guess I've just been preoccupied with getting set up at school again and also having fun with Tomo's PS2 she managed to bring up. DDR Max is great!! It's going to take me months to unlock everything though.

I've been playing alot of FFX in my freetime now. I can't get over how pretty the graphics are. I really wish I could get it with the japanese voices though =/ Sometimes I can read their lips and figure out what they just said in japanese =D It'd be nice to hear the original voices.

A small quiz before I get back to school work and stuff. yeahness!

Mmmm... fangirly.


You're a bishounen!

You're male, but people often mistake you for the other option. You're unfeasibly thin and pretty and always have perfect hair, often surrounded by sparkles/sakura/roses. You almost certainly have a tragic backstory which involves one or more of your parents, and are liable to have a Tragic Destiny (TM). You were almost certainly invented by a female mangaka, are worshipped by a female audience, and your life is characterised by periods of extreme pain and angst. Sucks to be you.
Which generic anime character are you?

Which Fruits Basket (Furuba) Character are you?
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*nervous laugh*

my wallpaper archive is up and running =D It's pretty simple but it works. I like simple and pretty. I called it Stuff. Make sure it has the period. Stuff. *nod nods* tell me what you think. ^_^ My comments section is gathering dust.

My legs ache....yesterday I played DDR Max with Rita. Tomo was there too but she didn't play much. But Rita and I danced our little hearts out. I love DDR. It's so satisfying. But I should have given myself a day to recoup. Today Rita, Tomo and I went downtown because Tomo and Brian discovered a new DDR machine in one of the malls from an early visit. So we DDRed our little hearts out. Even got some Pikkuri too. Either way my legs hurt, I was exhasted, and very very satisfied. Even tomo leaving her lights on by accident and killing the battery in her car didn't deter me. With a little emotional manuvering and a wonderful little cell phone we managed to get the car jumped and my world back in it's proper place.

I'm just starting to wonder whats the catch. Every single time I'm honestly content some sort of disastor happens for someone else. It runs like clockwork. I have a good day and someone has a disasterous day. But if I have a normal day things can be varied. Dito with me having a bad day. But good days? Always disasterous for someone else in my world. Maybe that's why I'm decent at comforting people...cause I'm the only one who's actually doing well o_o;;

Nothing really huge today. Though I would love to send jaime on a one way trip to Siberia.

We give you a month tops, after which you'll be a complete ddr burnout and will have sworn off the game totally, or you will be your local arcade's Cata Maestro.


Are you overly obsessed with Dance Dance Revolution?

Created by ptocheia

I will beat you rita!!! one day! one day!! *determined*

Come take the Comprehensive DDR Personality Test!

Created by ptocheia

Have a good day minna. I'm gonna go take a nap or something.

I love my pretty new cell phone =D I got to talk to desi and dee yesterday thanks to unlimited nightime/weekend minutes. Maybe I should call some of my other friends. Possibly.

Oh quick note on matters that probably don't apply to most people reading this. But I want to say it anyways. Jaime left!!! That @$%@head actually left!! YESSS!!!!! Now let's just hope he stays gone. Sorry kathryn. You must be in alot of pain, but it's much better this way. I promise. Just ask any of the people who care about you. Don't let that @#%$# stay!

Ok. no more of speaking on that subject on here.

Yesterday my father was watching football *soooo surprized. sarcasm sarcasm* and there were these 3 country singers singing the national anthem. The interesting part though was this. One of them was wearing armwarmers.
>_< This is starting to get a little annoying. I always catch fades half a year before they start and by the time I'm sick of them people like then. Why! This has been happening my whole life! In middle school I always had stuff all over my backpack. High school I loved cargo pants before they went back in style (again mind you). What's going to be next? Gothic Lolita? e_e;; No no, maybe it'll be my long skirts+long trench coat+half dyed hair. That's be amusing...though I guess sort of cool. Everyone starts wearing gothic lolita. That'd make me happy ^_^

Oh well. Go ahead everyone! wear those armwarmers with pride! =D

Woo! New years rocks. I love New Years. it's such a fun holiday. new beginnings ^__^

Hikaru no Go Quiz

o__o;; I can get really into things, probably close to Sai's point...creepy. But I'm not that graceful ^_^;;;; And Happiness is spelled wrong XD then again I'm not one to talk.

I went to a guitar store today with nigaki and rob. I realized how completely ignorant I am about that sort of thing. Well at least I can sing =D I love singing! I should practice singing poorly. XD Tetsu~~ Kana~~

Five things that 2002 taught me:

1. I'm never as good as I think I am and I'm never as bad as I think I am.
2. Exersize is a good thing.
3. Once you think you know everything there's always something that will make it seem like you know nothing.
4. Don't discriminate. That includes large drunk football fans. There are sweet openminded people in every class, generation, nationality, and orientation. That also means there are assholes in every class, generation, nationality, and orientation.
5. u_u; I have too much money and at the same time not enough.

Five personally significant events of 2002: in no particular order...
1. January 17th
2. Katsucon
3. Sophomore year in general
4. Lots of things in general but not really anything specific =/
5. Something? I can't think of anything at the moment

Five things I want to do in 2003:
1. Learn how to manage money better
2. Give more
3. Start to learn Mandarian and Arabic
4. Get better grades
5. Yasashiku naretara ii no ni (basically to be a little kinder in my heart)

Five things I don't want to do in 2003:
1. die
2. intentionally hurt anyone
3. be too greedy
4. give up the "no smart animals" thing
5. give up period. Just lose all my passion for things

Five people who I'd like to know better in 2003:
1. My grandmother as well as some of my heritage
2. My sisters. I really love them alot even though I don't think they love me back. Courtney especially. u_u
3. Steve. He really intrigues me...and then ignores me u_u; *the amazing invisable girl*
4. soldier nabuca, wingboy02, youkoanddragon, insertotherSNhere. I'm not just adding this cause you added me.
5. When you look inside, outside seems strangely familiar ^_^

It's New Years Resolution time and to be honest I haven't thought of any.
Last year it was:

Get my hair dyed purple (Does Blue Count)

Try and act a little less like Heero and more like Duo because antisocialness is starting to kill me >_< (I've made some friends =D I can still get a little anti-social though *giggle*)

Draw a doujinshii (>_< Fail!)

Learn html (o_o well...I'm not terrible at it)

Make more art (Lots and lots and lots of wallpaper!)

Earn all A's (*nervous laugh*)

Learn more mediums (*thinks* I don't know what mediums I knew before then....well I wasn't very good at photoshop at the time....and I never used ink before so I guess this one is a pass too)

Learn how to cook (I sort of slacked at this one. But so far ok)

Save enough for Katsu (I half passed this one. I went to Katsu. Spent way too much than I should have. Ended up in a little rut that I've been making up ^_^;; so I'll call this a fail)

So six out of nine isn't all that bad...I guess o_o;;

Ok! New Years Resolutions!!

.....*thinks*......I can't think of anything o_o;;; Maybe they'll come before the afternoon is up

New wallpaper though =D It's been a while. It's a Tsuzuki and Hisoka one I made during anime night while everyone was watching GTO. I think it turned out pretty decently ^_^ Tell me what you think I need critism on my wallpaper.

Oh!! I thought of a small resolution. Make a wallpaper archive! there we go. that's one.

I'm having fun on adam's radio station ^_^ He played some Malice Mizer and Plastic Tree for me. I might even get him to toss in a little Miyabi. One user messaged him to say that "This music is gay" so adam let me get on the radio and say "To the user, wait what was his name? Jake. I hate to tell you but Malice Mizer is not gay. Gackt happens to be only Bi. Sorry to say."

Much funness. ^_^

T_T I made tomo pissed off at me.....I feel bad. I hope we can patch things up.
*sniff*

Well at least I got good oyakodon and spent time with Nigaki and Rob. Otanjoubi Omedetou Rob-kun!!

New layout. I'm well aware I'm a sick and sad individual. XD bwhahahahahaha!!!!!

today was fun. I went shopping with my grandma and then a good friend (no names unless the d###less wonder uses it to his advantage). It was great but slightly tiring. my shoulders hurt.

I hope you all like the new layout. or hate it possibly. XD any powerful emotion would work.

Note: this was originally supposed to be a CCS one. But Nigaki has such wonderful ideas.